yeh mera aakhri salaam..

paali khushiyan tune mera dil jala kar,
bol kya tu jee sakegi mujhe bhula kar?

tu khush reh har pal,
teri khushion ke liye mujhe gham se bhi pyaar hai
bata ek pal ke liye bhi kya tujhe mera intezaar hai?

apna ujjda ashiyana..
iss baat ka mujhe gila nahi,
main kya gila karun,
tujhe dusra koi mila nahi,

meri barbaadiyon par tune,
lakhon khushiyan manayi,
bata zindagi mein phir,
tu kitni muskurayi?

tu khush rehna sadaa.. yeh meri dua hai,
teri har khushi ke peeche meri hi sadaa hai,

kar gayi tu mujhse bewafai yeh mera naseeb hai,
magar khush rakhna tu usse jo tere dil ke kareeb hai,

yeh mera mukkaddar nahi ki,
paa sakoon mein zamaane se mohabbat,
khatam hogayi aaj duniya ko meri zaroorat,

aaj main jaa raha hoon duniya se,
mohabbat ko zindagi dene ke liye,
bujha raha hoon main apna chiraag,
zamaane ko roshni dene ke liye.

na samjh tha main ki har ek se aitbaar kiya,
jisne bhi mujhse muskuraake baatein ki usse pyaar kiya,

ab jaa raha hoon main duniya se haath chord kar,
arzoo hai yaad karna tum humein kabhi bhool kar,

khushiyan mubarak ho tumhein,
apna to yahi paigaam hai,

tumko aur saare zamaane ko,
yeh mera aakhri salaam hai..

maine bhi muskuraana seekh liya

ab shayad milan nahi likha hai takdeer mein mere,
isliye maine bhi ab judaai se gale lagakar iske saath jeena seekh liya,

kehti thi jo apna mujhe,aaj mujhe ussi ne beagaana bana diya,

isliye maine bhi ab rishto se dil na lagaana seekh liya.

sab dhoka hai yahan,
iss duniya mein sab dikhaawa hai,
ek dhoke se jab dil na bhara mera,
maine bhi dhoke khaana seekh liya.

bahut naaz tha mujhe uski chahaton par,
uska zikar har mehfil mein karta tha main,
jab se diye hain zakham usne apni mohabbat ke,
maine bhi muskuraana seekh liya.

aise na the hum

aise na the hum,
jaise ki humari ruswaai logon ne,
kuch tumne badnaam kiya,
kuch aag lagayi logon ne..

ho sakta hai tumne jo dekha ho,
woh nazron ka dhoka ho,
ek jara si baat pe,
kya kya baat banaayi logon ne..

thokar mein iss ko liye,
tordkar tum bhi chale gaye,
tumko kya khabar ke,
shehar mein diwali manaayi logon ne,

ishq pe aafat kya hai na poocho
zakham tumhaare haath ke hain,
dukh humein iss baat ka hai,
aur yeh kayamat saath tumhare,
mil ke uthaayi logon ne..

dil zakhmo se choor hai aankhon mein paani hai

ubharte dard ki bas yahi kahaani hai,
dil zakhmo se choor hai,
aankhon mein meri paani hai,

kaise chord de saath dard ka ab jaanasheen,
jab dard ko saath dene ki baat maut tak thaani hai,

ab bas dard ko apna banaana hai aur koi chaara nahi,
ab dard ke naam dekho apni dard bhari jawaani hai.

meri zindagi ka peecha kar rahi tanhaai hai

hawa ghamon ki chayi hai,
aapne saath kayi dukh laayi hai,

mehfil mein kaise baithe hum dil thaam kar,
meri zindagi ka peecha kar rahi tanhaai hai,

har taraf hai roshni, ghar mein mere charaag nahi,
jaane kyun kismat ne humpar yeh kaher barsaayi hai.

kitne saal aaye aur gujar gaye

bhule bisre khawabo ko kuraidte rahe
tumhari yaad mein lamha dar lamha tardapte rahe,
ek ek din ko ungliyon ke poro mein ginte rahe,

kitna zalim tha yeh saal....
hamare bebasi pe woh hasste rahe,
gum tanhai mein hum sab se bichardte rahe.

yun hi raat aati rahi, yun hi din gujarte rahe,
ek muddat tak inn aankho se tum ko taraste rahe,
apni chahat ke paymane ko tum se bharte rahe...

kaano mein ek sada pari naya saal aagaya,
mujh ko aisa laga jaise mera yaar aagaya,

yun saalo ke aane se koi milta nahi,
takdir ka likha kabhi milta nahi,

tumhare baad kitne saal aaye aur gujar gaye,
intezaar karte karte hum ek umar mein dhal gaye,

maine har nayi saal se tumhara pata pucha,
ek lamba intezaar karwa kar woh bhi gujar gaye,

humko to har mousam jaisa lagta hai,
tumhare baad dil ka mousam veeran sa lagta hai,

dil ke abaad basti ujhard si gayi,
ab bhi tumhara aana bahar sa lagta hai,
har saal ke tarah yeh sal bhi,
gujar jayega apni yaadein de kar.

hum is tara manate rah gaye,
tumhare judaai ke saal,

ek bar laut kar to aa phir puchna humse,
kis tarah manate hain hum bewafai ka saal.

dard ghum aur tanhaai

dard kare kaise bayaan,
dardmand hai jab apni dastaan,

sunaane se pehle hi aankhein bhar aati hain,
dard ghum aur tanhaai de jaati hain,

badnaseeb nikla main jo pyaar na paa saka,
paas hote huye bhi unke kareeb na aa saka,

shayad na thi naseeb mein chahat apni,
apno ko bhi na thi zaroorat apni,

aise gham ka maara hoon main,
jeet kar bhi unhein haara hoon main,

kaise kahun ki kisi ke jeene ka sahaara tha main,
andhera jiska saath na chorde,
aise ek sitaara hoon main,

dil ne chaha ki likhde gham-e-dil ek naye andaaz mein,
mil jaaye koi humraaz tujhe apne humraaj mein.

mujhe bhool jaao tum

mujhe bhool jaao tum ab yehi khuda ki marzi hai,
wafa na kar sake to dosti ka pyar kafi hai,

ek pal mein bichard jaane se accha doori manjur hai,
is dil ke khel mein roz roz marne se ek pal ki judaai kafi hai,

aur nahi aayenge hum aapke raahon mein yeh dard hi kafi hai,
dil hi dil mein roye aur dard-e-tannhai iss dil mein kafi hai,

mujhe bhool jaao tum ab yeh kudrat ki marzi hai,
meri maut ke baad meri yaadein na sataye tumhein yeh ehsaas kafi hai.

aakhiri khawaish

ab bina gum ke zindagi ka guzara nahi hota,
ek khushi ke kareeb jaane se dar lagta hai,

aisi aadat huyi hai dil ko ab tannhai ki,
mehfil mein baat sunane se dar lagta hai,

sehmi aankhon mein neend sammet lene do,
inmein sukoon samaane se dar lagta hai,

dhokha khane ka yeh dil hai iss kadar kayal,
ek wada bhi nibhaane se ab dar lagta hai,

mujhe nafrat bhari aandhi ki jarurat doston,
mohabbat ko ab apnane se dar lagta hai.

koi taiyar karo saaz-o-saaman meri  arthi ka,
ab ye jehmat bhi utane se dar lagta hai.

aakhiri khawaish yahi ki dhardkane yeh tham jaye,
ab to saans liye jane se bhi dar lagta hai.

jeene ke liye yahi kaafi hai

woh bewafaa ho gayi iska koi gam nahi,
unhone chaha tha kabhi humein,
jeene ke liye yahi kaafi hai.

aaj door hai nigahon se kisi aur ke aagosh mein,
unhone thama tha mera bhi haath kabhi,
jeene ke liye yahi kaafi hai.

woh mukar gayi apne kiye har waade se koi gila nahi,
unhone pochein tha mere aankho se aanshu kabhi,
jeene ke liye yahi kaafi hai.

khush hai aaj woh barbaad karke hamein koi gam nahi,
tardpe the kabhi woh bhi intezaar mein mere liye,
jeene ke liye yahi kaafi hai.

aaj baras raha ho saawan aur,
dil mein kyu na mere pyaas ho,
woh bhi tannha thi kabhi bin mere,
jeene k liye yahi kaafi hai.

door jaane ka waqt hai aaya

aaj dosto se juda ho raha hoon,
jaane kyu itna udaas ho raha hoon,
kal ka suraj hoga tumhare saath,
humein na paaoge tum aapne saath.

aaj dosto se juda ho raha hoon,
kuch baatein tumse kahne aaya hoon,
kuch na kahe paun mein aaj ki raat,
humein na dekhoge tum aapne saath.

humara chehra na ab tum dekh paoogi,
sab ke nazaro se door ho jaaunga,
dil mein aapne yaadein chord jaauga,
sab ko aapne dil mein chhupa jaauga.

aaj dosto se juda ho raha hoon,
yaadon ki tasveer le jaa raha hoon,
dard akele dil mein sah raha hoon,
beetein lamhein liye jaa raha hoon.

aaj main sab se juda ho raha hoon,
phir tumse bichardne ka waqt aaya,
door jaane ka waqt paas aaya,
maut ne humein jeena sikhaya,
dard mein bhi sahana sikhaya

hum akele the akele hi reh jaate hain

dil ka dard kise dikhaaye,
marham lagane wale hi zakhm de jaate hain,

bhari duniya mein hum tera pyaar le aaye,
tumne to thukrah kar chale aaye,

paas aakar sabhi door chale jaate hain,
hum akele the akele hi reh jaate hain,

pehle yakeen dilate hain ki woh hamare hain,
phir na jaane kyu badal jaate hain,

badalte duniya se hum kya mange,
bas zindagi ka har kayenaat,
tum par kurban karte hain.

bahut tannha hoon main

kaash khawabon mein hi aa jaao bahut tannha hoon main,
ya mere zehan se yaadon ke diye bhuja jaao tum,

mere ehsaas ki duniya ko mitta do hamdam
raat taare nahi.. angaare liye aati hai,

in baraste huye sholon ko bujha do hamdam,
dil ki dhardkan ko sula jaao bahaut tannha hoon main,

andheri raat mein jab chaand khilne lagte hain,
tumhaare pyaar ke deepak jalaa ke rota hoon main,

tumhaare aane ki jab aas jaane lagi hai,
main in chiraaghon ko khud hi bujha ke rota hoon main,

zindagi aisi mitta jaao bahut tannha hoon main,
sochte sochte jab soch bhi mar jaati hai,

waqt ke kadmon ki aahat ko suna karta hoon main,
ashk thamte hain to aankhon mein dhuwa uthta hai,

raat bhar yunhi tarapta hoon, jala karta hoon main,
dard- e- gham kuch to ghatta jaao bahut tannha hoon main.

ab hum bas zakhmo ko seete hain

unki hi ek adda thi yeh, jisne iss dil ko dhardkaya,
woh ruth gaye jis pal mujhse, har pal ne dil ko tardpaya.

unke liye bas ek khel tha yeh, har kali magar jhukne si lagi,
woh kya ruthe ek pal mujhse, bas sans meri rukne si lagi.

koi jakar unse yeh kahe, koi jakar yeh batlaye,
unke dum se hi meri duniya thi, koi unko yeh samjhaye.

unse hi humne hassna seekha, unse hi to dil mein rangat tha,
unse hi hai jana pyar hai kya, kya wafa huyi kya ulfat hai.

agar tanha hi rakhna tha hamein, kyu iss dil mein yun aas bhari,
kyu sapne saare dikhlaye, kyu kar di duniya hari bhari.

ab tanhai hai, ashq bhi hai, hum bas zakhmo ko seete hai,
woh aayenge iss aas mein hi, hum saansein lete jeete hai.

na sathi hai na hai koi saaya

mohabbat ki hakikat ko samajh mein kyu nahi paya,
jab samjha to yahi samjha.. na sathi hai na hai koi saaya,

meri deewangi ka ab to aalam yeh hua dekho,
khud ko kho ke bhi dekha, bewafa phir bhi kehlaya,

woh mujhse ruthi baithi hai, na ab apna samajhti hai,
nahi samjha saka usko, jo apna dil bhi chir ker dikhlaya,

woh kya ilzaam ab degi, khuda ka kehar dekha hai,
duniya ke aashique mein mera bhi naam hai aaya,

jo yeh anzaam-e-ulfat hai, tauba hum to karte hain,
khudaya kyu bhala tune, gunah yeh humse karwaya?

mohabbat ki hakikat ko, samajh mein kyun nahi paya,
jab samjha to yahi samjha, na sathi hai na hai koi saaya.

tum se juda hue the hum jis mord par

december ka ehsaas in sard hawaon mein hai,
mere aanshuon ki garmi phir in fizaon mein hai,

yaad hai mujhe woh baraste barish ki raatein,
kitni kasak un yaadon ki sadaon mein hai,

kuch nahi badla, bas mausam badlate rahe,
ab bhi tera intezaar basa, meri wafaon mein hai,

adhuri mohabbat hai meri tere bagair yahaan,
na jism mein jaan, na shokhi in adaon mein hai,

tum se juda hue the hum jis mord par kabhi,
uth-te mere haath aaj bhi wahi duaon mein hai.

seene mein hai dard bahut

seene me hai dard aur dhadkan ruk rahi hai,
yeh aankhein nam hoke nirasha se jhuk rahi hai,

na jane mohabbat yeh kaisi dard de rahi hai,
kal khusi aur aaj aankho mein nami de rahi hai,

itne kareeb aake bhi woh mujhse door chale gaye,
aaj bhi unke khusi ke liye iss dilse dua nikal rahi hai.

baate uski aaj kanto ki tarha chubh rahi hai,
zindagi mein aaj mujhe tanhai mehsus ho rahi hai,

khusi aake choukat pe ab wapas laut rahi hai,
khusi bhari zindagi meri dhime se simat rahi hai.

kitna kuch diya hai teri bewafai ne

teri wafa mili hoti to sirf wafa mili hoti,
intezaar... zakhm... aanshu... tanhai...
kitna kuch diya hai teri bewafai ne.

tum mil gaye hote to sirf tum mile hote,
veeranapan... andhera... tuta hua ek dil...
kitna kuch diya hai teri judaai ne.

tumse agar guftugu hoti to sirf guftugu hoti,
naam... shorat... izzat... mehfil-e-gam...
bakshi hain meri dard bhari shayari ne.

murde parde jazbaat ko aakhir jagaye kaun

roothe huye ho khud se ya humse se ya zamane se,
pehle yeh faisla karo tumko manaye kaun,

aashu hai, dard hai har taraf, tannhai hai,
teri mehfil tujhe mubarak, aisi mehfil mein aaye kaun,

soya hua ho dil to jagana bhi ho mumkin,
murde parde jazbaat ko aakhir jagaye kaun,

har waqt mitha bole, woh khubiyan hai kisme,
kabhi mitha, kabhi kadwa ab unko samjaye kaun.

woh dard ki dukan, woh dard bechte hain

woh dard ki dukan,
woh dard bechte hain,
humko khushi se pyar,
hum unke dard khareedte hain.

woh aashuo se bhari aakhe,
woh har baat pe unka ro dena,
meri fitrat muskarana,
kyu hum bhi sath unke rote hain?

itna mehsoos kiya hai unke ehsaaso ko,
ke ab yeh aalam hai,
bewajah hum bhi tardap jate hain,
jab yaadein unki dard dete hain

unki tanhai bhi mujh mein utar aayi hai,
mehfilo mein rehkar bhi hum akayle rehte hain,
unki tarah main bhi bikhar gaya hoon shayed,
kuch na kuch mein unka ban gaya hoon shayed,

unko apni khushi mein shareek to na kar sake,
unke jaisa main bhi ban gaya hoon  shayed.

kuch to baat hai teri bewafai mein

kuch to baat hai teri bewafai mein,
har lamha tujhe yaad karta hai ye dil,

kuch to baat hai teri berukhi mein,
khamosh har sitam sehta hai ye dil,

kuch to baat hai teri khamoshi mein,
har baddua teri sun leta hai ye dil,

kuch to baat hai teri shikayat mein,
har ilzaam tera kabul karta hai ye dil,

kuch to baat hain teri nafrat mein,
bohat chahta hai tujhe mera dil.

gazalein meri karti hai mujhse wafadari

ho jane de bezubaan raaj ko,
karne de mujh ko shayri,
mujhe guftugu ka salika nahi pata,
mujhe sune gaur se duniya sari,

dosti ho kisi se aisa mera kirdar nahi,
magar mere shero se hain sabko yari,
kasam khayi thi tumse ab na bolege,
ijaazat do bas itni likhu tumpe ghazal,
aur kasam bhi na tute hamari.

jo milta hai kar ke chhalli chala jata hai,
kuch aisi hai ab kismat hamari,
shukr hai likhne ka hunar hai mujh mein,
chaahe hazaro ho burayi ,
gazalein meri karti hai mujhse wafadari.

ek shayer ko pagal na kaho doston

ek shayer ko pagal na kaho doston,
uski halat pe na tum hasso doston,

jab gum mein tum bhi dub jaoge,
jab apni hi zindagi se tum ghab-raoge,

apne paraye tumko jab dege daga,
jab apni mohabbat banegi bewafa,

jab aakho se aashu behne lagege,
log tumko bhi pagal kehne lagege,

uss din meri baatein tujko yaad aayegi,
har aah teri shaayri nazar aayegi...

kabhi tujhse jo mil sake to batayenge

kabhi tujhse jo mil sake to jaan-e-jaana,
to tujhe batayenge yeh ghum jaana,
tujhe kitna chahte hain ab tak,
tujhe yaad karte hain ab talak,

tujhe dil mein basa ke tamaam pal,
kisi aankh mein na samaa sake,
kisi ek raat ko na soo sake,
kisi ek khushi ko na paa sake,
kisi ek hassi ko taras gaye.

kabhi tujse jo mil sake to jaan-e-jaana,
tere naksh-e-wafa ki jo murat thi,
usse apni aankhon mein sama ke hum,
hazaaro dariya bahate gaye,

koi chehra hum na samajh sake,
kisi chehre ko hum na lubha sake,
kabhi tujse jo mil sake to jaan-e-jaana,
to tujhe batayenge yeh ghum jaana,
kabhi tujhse jo mil sake to batayenge...

in sard andheri raaton mein

in sard andheri raaton mein,
sab sardken jab sunsaan si hon,

sab apne ghar ko laut chuke,
kuch jaag rahe kuch so chuke,

kuch naram khwaabon mein kho chuke,
woh tannha apni soch mein gum,

un sarkon pe yun phirta hai,
kuch khoj mein shayad rehta hai,

woh neend se kosoon door talak,
bas chalta hai or chalte rahta hai,

jab thakta hai or girta hai,
tab yaad ke saare surkh zakham,

sapno ki soorat mein aate hain,
do aankhon ko dhundlate hain,

in sard andheri raaton mein,
tab yaad bohat tum aate ho,
tab yaad bohat tum aate ho.

adhura to nahi par akela to hoon

kaise chaloon manzil ki taraf,
sab kuch to yahan bikhra parda hai,

itna aasaan nahi hota apno ko bhool jana,
mera to yahan har rishta bikhra parda hai,

kis baat par aaye sukoon, koi baat aisi nahi,
mujh ko iss jagah par har insaan jakda parda hai,

itna aasaan nahi phenk dena yaadon ko,
jis par ki humara praan bhi chipka parda hai,

adhura to nahi par akela to hoon,
jane kahan hai khuda, kahan kahan khuda parda hai,

bator loon kaise, khud aa kar dekh lo,
jissm ka katra yahan wahan har tukra parda hai,

socha tha ki milegi woh jab jaonga shahar waapis
pahonch gaya to dekha ki har shaks ukhra parda hai..

aadat yeh kab badalti hai

musafir to bicharte hain,
kismat kab badalti hai,
mohabbat zinda rehti hai,
mohabbat kab badalti hai.

tumhi ko chahte hain hum,
tumhi se pyar karte hain,
yehi barson se aadat hai,
to aadat kab badalti hai.

kalli ka phool banna aur
bikhar jana mukaddar hai,
yehi kanoon-e-fitrat hai,
to fitrat kab badalti hai.

jo dil pe naksh kar jaye
aur aankhon mein simat aaye,
aadat hai ye chahat ki,
to chahat kab badalti hai.

badal jate hain mausam,
phool mein khushboo nahi rehti,
magar chahat ke phoolon ki
mehakk kab badalti hai.

unhein chaha, unhein khoya,
yehi takdir hai apni,
hamein gumrah mat samjho
ibadat kab badalti hai.

purane zakhm ko raaj
bhula dena hi acha hai,
na chahe aap hi koi
to kismat kab badalti hai.

yeh wafadari ki baatein betuke se hain

kisi ko pyaar karna koi bardi baat nahi,
yaha to roz kayi log pyaar karte hain,
yaha to roz kayi rishte naye bante hain,

yeh ahsaas, shiddat, jazbaat sab baatein hain,

yaha yeh lafz raddi ke bhaw bikate hain,
pyaar kya hai koi sikhe to hum se sikhe,

pyaar jismo ki chahat ke siwa kuch bhi nahi,
chand roz ki lagawat ke siwa kuch bhi nahi,

yeh wafadari ki baatein betuke se hain,
pyaar dil tord ke khush rahne ke siwa kuch bhi nahi,

nayi duniya hai yeh, dost jara tu bhi badal,
pyaar to badal gaya hai, jara ghar se bahar nikal,

yaha ab dil se khelne mein logo ko maza aata hai,
yaha to naam-e-wafa dil hi ko behlata hai,

mazze uske hain jo iss lafz ko dohrata hai,
kisi ko kuch kisi ko or kuch samjhata hai,

naye panchhi ko pakdne ka hunar aata hai,
unki mohobbat ki sab baatein hi jhooti thi,
kisi ko pyaar karna ab koi bardi baat nahi,

tu to kehti thi ki hum dil ek baar lagte hain,
jis se lagta hai ussi se wafa nibhate hain,
jaan bhi uske liye dena ho to bardi baat nahi,
pyaar se bardh ke duniya mein koi sogat nahi,

wo banai huyi ek bhagwan ki murat hai,
pyaar gar na ho to phir uska naam taj nahi,
pyaar ka rishta kisi rishte ka mohtaaz nahi,
pyaar wo shay hai jisse koi bhi anjaan nahi,

aaj ke dor mein wo saari baatein hi jhooti hain,
iss badal ti huyi duniya main sirf lafz hain yeh,
kisi ko jeetne ko, dabane wali nabj hai yeh,
aaj har or naam mohobbat ka liya jaata hai,
aard mein iski kuch or hi kiya jaata hai.

gaye din jab mohobbat bandgi thi

bardi sehmi huyi si ye fizza hai,
yaha tanhai bhi gum se bhari hai,

bardi shiddat se isko katata hoon,
mohabbat naam ki ye jo sazza hai,

sukun mujh ko kabhi milta na shayad,
magar ab dard dil ke darmiyan hai,

mera hona bhi ab to bewajah hai,
jiye jana bhi jaise ek sazza hai,

mere bachpan ke din bhi bewafa the,
jinhein ab tak mera dil dhundhta hai,

kisi ki yaad mein roye bahut hain,
teri aankho ka kazal bolta hai

na jaane kaun si manzil hai yaaron,
yaha se rasta hi rasta hai,

dilo pe dhund si ek chha gayi hai,
kahi dhundhla sa ek chehara bacha hai,

khud apne shehar meinmain ajnabi hoon,
tumhara dard hi ab mujhko aashan hai,

pata mera koi dhundega kaise,
meri kismat mein tannha rasta hai,

gaye din jab mohobbat bandgi thi,
ab to mahez ek mazzak hai

bharte nahi hain zakham humare kisi bhi tarha se

khayalon mein main unse aksar kehta tha,
meri bas itni khawaish hai,
main kuch aisa pehchana jau,
zindagi bhar pyaar ke naam se jana jau,

iss paar bhi dekha uss paar bhi dekha,
mohabbat kahi bhi nahi,
duniya ko azma ke bhi dekha,

karte hain nafrat jaha bhar ke log,
tere sheher ke un sunsaan rashton mein aa ke bhi dekha,

mohabbat ke andhere mein sab jakde huye hain log,
nazar ke diyo ko humne jalakar bhi dekha,

samjha nahi koi bhi humari dard ki siddat ko,
har ek ko haal-e-dil sunake bhi dekha,

bharte nahi hain zakham humare kisi bhi tarha se,
apni aankhon ka har aanshu humne gira ke bhi dekha,

kharida nahi hum ko kisi ne bhi neelami mein,
khud ko saare bazaar pesh kara ke bhi dekha,

bulate nahi ho tum humein zindagi ke safar mein,
dar-badar kai baar hum ne tum ko bula ke bhi dekha,

aata nahi hai wapas kabhi beeta hua zamana,
lamho ke dor ko wapas ghuma ke bhi dekha,

aate nahi ho kabhi bhi humare khwabon mein,
aankhon ki nagri mein tere aa ke bhi dekha,

bhula nahi pate hain tujh ko kisi bhi tarah se,
aap ne to humein rula ke bhi dekha,

chordti nahi hain peecha, teri bhatakti huyi yaadein,
tere iss purane sheher ko chord ke bhi dekha,

kaash wo ruk jati ek pal ke liye,
waise mohabbat ka wasta usko de ke bhi dekha,

aaj tak unke baad hum ne kisi aur ki tamanna nahi ki,
aur unhone to kisi aur ka ho ke bhi dekha.

jo beeti hai usse bhulane mein kuch waqt lagega

jo beeti hai usse bhulane mein kuch waqt lagega,
aapke diye zakhamo ko ek yaad banane mein kuch waqt lagega,

neend to aane ko thi lekin dil peechli yaad le baitha,
ab khud ko bewaqt sulane mein kuch waqt lagega,

uska na hona ab meri tanhai bardha deta hai,
par ye baat usko samjhane mein kuch waqt lagega,

aakhir humein bhi ek din ghar jana hai,
lekin itni door se aane mein kuch waqt lagega,

itni uljhi hai meri mohabbat ki kahani,
isse mitane mein kuch waqt lagega.

bichadne wale meri baatein kabhi tumhein rulaye to laut aana

udaas shamein, udaas raste kabhi bulaye to laut aana,
kisi ki aankhon mein suraj ki kirne nazar aaye to laut aana,

abhi naye wadiyon, naye manzaron mein reh lo magar meri jaan,
ye sare ek ek kar ke jab tum ko chord jaye to laut aana,

jo shaam dhalte hi apni apni panah gharon ko laute hain,
agar wo panchi koi dastaan sunaye to laut aana,

main roz yun hi hawa par likh likh kar uski yaadein,
acche mausam agar pahado pe muskuraye to laut aana,

agar andheron mein chord kar tum ko bhool gaye tumhare saathi,
aur apni apni khatir hi diye jalayein to laut aana,

meri wo tujh se pyar ki baatein jin par tu khil-khilakar hasti thi,
bichadne wale, meri wo baatein kabhi rulaye to laut aana.

pata hai pyar kar ke kya mila

pata hai pyar kar ke kya mila,
ajeeb rishta raha kuch aapno se mera,
na nafrat ki wajah mili na mohabbat ka sila.

woh log jo dil ke kareeb the

woh log jo dil ke kareeb the,
wahi log to be-imaan huye,
jo mohabbaton ke chukidaar the,
wohi log to bewafa huye.

yeh kayamatein bhi ajeeb hain,
kisi pal bhi mujko sakoon nahi,
woh kayamatein kya haseen thi,
jo kayamatein mujhse jurdi huyi.

jinhein khud pe itna yakeen tha,
jinhein khud pe kya kya gumaan tha,
wohi khud se aise juda huye,
unhein khud bhi apni khabar nahi.

abhi mauj-e-junoon hai thodi si thami huyi,
abhi aag bhi hai kuch sard bujhi huyi,
jo bhadak uthegi yeh phir kahi,
to sakoon na paoge phir kabhi.

because I hate myself for loving you

I will not make the same mistakes now,
I know that feelings are nothing but fake,
you caused me the most painful heartbreak,
and I hate myself for loving you..

I can't sleep and I can't hang on anymore,
I have locked up all my hearts door,
I am not gonna love again and it's for sure,
and I hate myself for loving you..

I am torn into pieces and I can't deny,
but she cant see the tears that I cry,
why did I ever fall for you.. tell me why?
and I hate myself for loving you..

you washed away the best of me,
its like who am I? I am  just not me.
its like the world has come to an end,
its like in front of others I have to pretend.

its like I am ashamed of my life because its empty,
its like I hate you because you make me feel so guilty.

I want a person besides me not a girl who runs and hides,
your tears are like acid rain that just turn into lies,
and you are my past now.. girl don't be surprised!
because I hate myself for loving you...

mere gham mein meri takdeer nazar aati hai

sacha hoon main mere saamne aakar dekho,
khud nazar aaogye jo aankh mila ker dekho.

mere gham mein meri takdeer nazar aati hai,
dagmaga jaoge mera dard utha ker dekho.

yun to aasaan nazar aata hai manzil ka safar,
kitna mushkil hai meri raah se chal ker dekho.

muskaan chehare par meri  hai nazron ka dhoka,
kin andheroon mein bhatakta hoon main aaker dekho.

dil tumhara hai main ye jaan bhi de doon tum per,
bas mera saath zara dil se nibha ker dekho.

mout kareeb hai magar tum se waada hai mera,
laut aaounga main, tum ek baar bula ker dekho.

umeed ki thi pyar ki bas yehi bhool thi meri

toote hoye khawabon mein hakikat dhundta hoon,
pathar ke dilon mein mohabbat dhundta hoon,

naadan hoon mein ab tak yeh bhi nahi samjha,
be-jaan logo mein insaaniyat dhundta hoon,

mere jazbaaton ki keemat yahan kuch bhi nahi,
beimaani ke baazaron mein sharafat dhundta hoon,

iss ajnabi duniya mein koi bhi apna nahi,
gairon ki aankhon mein apni surat dhundta hoon,

umeed ki thi pyar ki bas yehi bhool thi meri,
girte huye ashkon mein apni hasrat dhundta hoon.

aaj bhi beet gaya yuh hi kal ke vaste

aaj bhi beet gaya yuh hi kal ke vaste,
zindagi chalti rahi ek adhuri ghazal ke vaste.

hum rahe intezaar mein kab zindagi gale lagaye,
aur zindagi baithi rahi meri pehal ke vaste.

meri zindagi tere mehak se kuch aur der gulzaar rahti,
jo baithe rahte khamosh yuh hi kuch aur pal ke vaste.

uska ehsaan kaise bhul paygi tu,
barbaad ho gaya jo tere khusi ke vaste.

saath do kadam ka bhi tune diya nahi

pahele tu hai, dard hai, shikwe hazaar hain,
abb iss se jyada mere iss dil mein jaga nahi,

main khud hi teri raah se anjan ho gaya,
ha sun liya tha maine jo tune kaha nahi,

tu khud hi apni baat par sharminda ho gayi,
teri jafa ka maine to shikwa kiya nahi,

tha naaz mujhko jo tere humraah hone ka,
par saath do kadam ka bhi tune diya nahi.

khokla sa mera yeh mann hai

naa dil hai, naa dhardkan hai,
bas khokla sa mera yeh mann hai,

naa khushi ki koi jhalak,
naa woh sharmayi huyi si palak,

naa woh pyaar bhari aankhon ki bhanak,
naa teri woh dheemi dheemi si mehak,

gayi ho jab se tum,
mere is jeevan se baahar,

suna suna lag raha hai,
mera yeh dil kaa aangan,

veeranapan chaya hai har jagah,
mere dil aur jigar mein,

lagta hain aise ki main,
aa gaya hoon ek anjaan shahar mein,

jaantha nahi kya karoon,
maanta nahi mera dil kahi,

adhoori si yeh zindagi meri tumhare bina,
lagta hai jaise aaj shuru huyi,
aur anth bhi aaj hi huyi.

kyun khawab adhure rehte hain

hum aksar sab se kehte  hain,
kyun khawab adhure rehte hain,

kyun yaad kisi ki aati hai,
kyun dard jigar mein hota hai,

kyun aksar ankh ki palko mein,
ek jalan sa bana rahta hai,

kyun kadam lardkharate hain,
hum jab bhi chalne lagte hain,

kyun palkein num ho jati hai,
hum jab bhi hassne lagte hain,

aksar raat ki andhere mein,
yaadon ka zehar ugalti hai,

kyun virha ka mousam aata hai,
jab ussi ki baatein hoti hain,

kyun log deewane hote hain,
kyun dard hazaoron sehte hain,

hum aksar sab se kehte hain,
kyun khawab adhure rehte hain..?

humse bichard kar jee lene se kya saabit tum kar paaoge?

iss lambi pehchaan se kuch bhi hua haasil nahi,
tum mein woh dard jagaa paayein,
shayad hum mein hi woh baat nahi.

ab bas ek udaasi hai,
jo tum kabhi na samajh paao,
par tum khush rehkar bhi dekh lo,
gar yaadon ko mita paao.

apni aankhein mund lene se,
ehsaason ko na mita paaoge,
humse bichard kar jee lene se,
phir kya saabit tum kar paaoge?

bas ab ek vishwaas hai,
muh mord kar gar main chala jaau,
tardpoge to tum bhi phir,
bayaan mijhse bhi na kar paaoge.

pyaar sammetna seekh lo,
to pyaar lutana bhi jaan jaaoge,
par ab na jaane kahan sammetoge,
aur na jaane kahan lutaoge.

jo mere pyaar ki kadr na kar sako,
to iska gila sirf mujhe rahega,
jis din keemat jaanoge,
sirf tardpoge aur pachtaoge...

life goes on

finally a few moments for myself,
I made myself a cup of coffee,

turned on some soulful music,
sat on the leather couch,

and took a sip from the cup,
as it went down the throat.

I felt a bit relaxed,
and laid back on the couch,

and reflected on the times,
from the very low to the very high,

and right down once again,
only to rise again.

life had taken a full circle,
in the last one year of my life,

I have grown more then I did,
in the last 34 years of my life,

faced with new challenges,
standing at a crossroad,

I wonder what will it be next,
I only smile at myself,

for all I can say right now is,
life it goes on....!!

try to be different stick out from the rest

I am tired of everything being the same,
one more life another pointless game.

I am tired of looking at the knife,
hoping to die ending this meaningless life.

I am tired of looking for someone to hold,
when there’s no one there so I am left in the cold.

I am wanting to end this life I lead,
but instead I stay while in my dreams I fled.

I wish I could just up and die,
no one would care I was only to cry.

I wish I could help everyone,
but instead I can't their led to the gun.

I want to be the hero and save the day,
instead I have saved zero more lives to pay.

I don’t want you to hurt everyone out there,
just know that I am here and will forever care.

for I have been hurt countless times before,
and yet it just comes back always haunting me for more.

I don’t want you to suffer and hurt like I did,
for there’s to much pain I refuse to die as a kid.

and I hope you do the same because life has much to give,
it would be a shame if you decided not to live.

so the message to this poem is to always try your best,
and try to be different stick out from the rest.

cause you are strong and some day you will see,
that you can belong just as it came to me.

importance of breathing space in any relationship

I always thought I was good at handling relationships,
as each relationship I made was close to my heart.

love obviously was there,
care I did and understanding,
I tried to maintain.

were these the only requisites?
no there is more to it...

relationships I had heard,
go deeper and deeper with time,
but the more I was getting in,
the more I felt uneasy.

I don’t know why but I wasn’t feeling good,
just wanted to break free of all of them.

could not understand the reason,
gradually I realized that it was the lack of space.

lack of breathing space space where I was myself,
at times, to keep the other person in the relationship happy.

I did things which I didn’t want to,
more and more it happened as the relation grew,

this was wrong as I had to be dishonest to myself,
I thought, this is the way to keep things going.

but it wasn’t more it happened, more it suffocated me,
more I felt the lack of space,
just didn’t have enough air to breathe.

I heard, saw and spoke what others wanted me to,
I was losing my identity, I was losing myself,

all of a sudden, the world looked so confined,
someone told me that “with every new relation,

you have to be extra careful,
not to let it affect the older ones”

these words seem so true,
and this is where I erred.

whenever a new relation developed,
I had lesser time for some of the older ones,

or some other time.. for somebody’s happiness,
I had to be distant from somebody else,

everything became so messy,
it’s really not easy to maintain them,

today, I realize the importance of breathing space in any relationship,
how important it is to let the person be himself/herself….

may it be your relation with your spouse,
your siblings, your parents or your love,
maintaining the right balance is important.

its easy to jump at conclusions,
but difficult to imagine ourselves at that place.

there’s always a new morning,
as before, life brings a new relation everyday,
and they get close too.

but I don’t feel uneasy any more,
I have learned to maintain my self respect,
and at the same time maintain the space,

and as long as these are there,
the journey together will be good.

aaj phirse is safar mein akela hoon

zindagi ke is safar mein akele chal rahe the,
jab is safar mein koi nahi tha aaya,

har shaam khamoshi bhari ek aahat thi,
aur chaaro taraf tannhai ka tha ek saya,

na koi khushi thi.. dard bhari bas shayari thi,
takdeer ne yeh kaisa tha faisla sunaya,

aayi jab ek masoom si murat samne,
us apne ki murat ne dil tha mera churaya,

ajeeb si khushi thi is dil ko kisi se milne ki,
uski khushbu ka nasha mere rom rom mein tha samaya,

tannhai aur khamoshi bhari zindagi door huyi,
pyaar ka aisa ek deep tha usne jalaya,

pyaar ko khuda maan ke pojaa tha is dil ne,
ussi khuda ne har pal mere pyaar ko tha mitaya,

apne aap ko badal ke saath chalna chaha,
par takdeer ne har baar hai mujhe haraya,

aaj phirse is safar mein akela hoon,na koi khushi hai.. bas dard bhari shayari,aur chaaro taraf tannhai ka hai ek saya.

hope you are doing okay

did I ever tell you that I really love you
and I think about you all day.

I really miss you and wish Icould kiss you,
but why are you so far away?

since you have been gone
I have thought over and over about you inside my head,

and where I went wrong,
where I went wrong?

every day, I have been thinking a lot
about all of the things you’d say.

since I went away, since I went away,
I guess I could call you and ask you “how are you"?

but I really don’t have much to say...

I sit all alone and I stare at the phone
and I hope that you are doing okay!

I just have to get up when I fall

the long suffering struggle
between the heart and the head,
my long suffering heart
every single tear I have shed.

its way due time
to forget my past,
let go of the hurt
and move on at last.

the past is what it is
and that's where it should stay.
no within my broken heart
waiting to be released one day.

I need to learn
how to well and truly let go,
accept my mistakes
and go with the flow.

it sure is easy
to be writing in word form,
what about real life
is my preaching worth to conform?

all I know is this
and that is nothing at all,
I just have to take it as it comes
get up when I fall..

yaa rab mujhe apne pass bula le

dil ki kashti yaadon ke tufano se lardti hai,
tute huye khwabon ko paane machalti hai,
ise manzil-aye- sahil dila de,
yaa rab mujhe apne pass bula le.

mera chand door hai mujhse,
ab sitare bhi khamosh hain,
inn sitaron mein mujhe bhi ek jagah dila de,
yaa rab mujhe apne pass bula le.

har ek dua mein usse manga tha,
kya meri ibadat ka yahi ek sila tha,
mujhe apne wazud ka ehsas dela de,
yaa rab mujhe apne pass bulale.

dil mein chupa khanzar ab nikalta nahi,
zakhmo pe zakhm ab sahe jaate nahi,
bechain ruh ko rahat dila de,
yaa rab mujhe apne pass bula le,

har sazde mein tujhe hi pukara tha,
har waqt bas tera hi sahara tha,
raj ke zindagi mein bhi yeh lamha de de,
yaa rab mujhe apne pass bula le.

bandh labon ki bhi apni ek jubaan hoti hai

log kehte hain ki dard ki koi jubaan nahi hoti,
agar aisa hota to kabhi aanshu na bante moti.

bandh labon ki bhi apni ek jubaan hoti hai,
har dard ki apni ek alag dastaan hoti hai.

rooh to khamosh reh har dard ko sehti hai,
par nazarein khud hi poori kahani kehti hai.

har dard kehta apni alag hi kuch kahani hai,
jisse sun har aankh ka sookh jata pani hai.

arre dard ki kasak se hi to lag ghayal hote hain,
kabhi-kabhi issi tees ke bhi log deewane hote hain.

I am so lonely without you

O lonely,
I am so lonely, without you.

ever since I met you,
my world revolved around you.

dreams, emotion, passion,
all were just for you.

every breath, every heartbeat,
was just for you.

now that you are gone,
what is left is tears,

an eyes full of tears ,
and few old memories of you.

here I sit at the same place,
trying to drain your thoughts away,

but the more I try, the more it pains,
and what is left is a broken heart.

I am lonely,
oh God it hurts real bad!

but I feel so lonely,
without you.

kaise teri yaadein mitaun main, kaise tujhko bhulaun main

hum to sachi mohabbat kerte the aap se,
naa jane kis rishte ki darr se mohabbat tord di mujh se,

ab aap humein bhool jane ko kahte ho,
ab aap apni yaadein mitane ko kahte ho,

par kaise teri yaadein mitaun main,
kaise tujh ko bhulaun main,

jaha jata hoon teri justaju rah jati hai,
kaise tera ahsas chipau main,

iss zamane ke riti-riwajo mein humara rishta kuch aisa uljha,
lakh chah kar bhi yeh na suljha,

ab sab jaan kar bas yahi dua hai meri,
sada kush rahe tu sari khusi ho puri teri,

ye aakhri alvida hai mera,
sada yaad rakhna ek saccha chahane wala hai tera.

I wish I had all the answers

gazing at the sky with starry eyes,
I wondered why it is like it is,

questions many answers none,
a storm rises within,

as my hart sinks I wish I knew why I have tears,
when the choice was all mine.

not feeling sorry that it ended,
I am happy that it happened.

yet my heart lets me not rest.
I wish I had all the answers,
I wish I had..

lamha lamha zindagi ka battor raha hoon

lamha lamha zindagi ka battor raha hoon,
bikhri huyi duniya ko battor raha hoon,

khwaab jo kabhi pure nahi ho sakke,
aaj un tute khawaab ko jord raha hoon,

geeli aankhon ke behte paani se
apne hi daman ko kar sharabor raha hoon,

kitne hi rahon pe kaaton pe chala,
aaj phloon se muh mord raha hoon,

kalam ki sihayi khatam hone par
katre ke liye dil nichor raha hoon,

jo kuch hi pal ki to hai zindagi,
to aaj maut ko kyon kar door raha hoon.

tum apni duniya nayi basaogi

aaj tum mujh se door jaaogi
apni duniya nayi basaogi,
ab kise ajnabi ki banhon mein
apni raanayian lutaogi,

maine maana ki door jaogi
apni duniya nayi basaogi,
phir bhi main puchta hoon tumse
mere nishaan mita bhi paaogi?

jab bhi dil se mujhe bhulaogi,
dar hakeeqat fareb khaogi,
din katega mere tasavar mein
apne khwabon mein mujh ko paogi,

apne aaram dar makhmali bistar mein
neend aankhon mein jab basaogi,
jaane kya yaad aayega tum ko
siskiyan lete huye jaag jaogi,

aadhi raaton mein jaag jaane ki
wajah kya hai samajh na paogi,
aur phir bebasi ke aalam mein
meri tasveer tum utthaogi.

jab bhi haalat koi zakhm naya deta hai

jab bhi haalat koi zakhm naya deta hai,
hum ussi dard ko chupke se daba dete hain.

ghum yeh nahi ki seene mein sajaye hazaro ghaaw,
afsoos to yeh ki khud kured kar hara kar dete hain.

tannha raaton mein nazre uthaye aasma ki taraf,
kitne taaron ko apna khuda bana dete hain.

sahil se takkrati hain jab lehreyin beshumaar,
ret par likhe bejuban naam ko mita dete hain.

machle hue armano ka bas itna hai phasana,
dil se uteh gubar ko ashkon mein baha dete hain. 

jhutha hi sahi tumne pyaar to kiya tha

jhutha hi sahi
tumne pyaar to kiya tha,
ek din ke liye hi sahi
mera intezaar to kiya tha.

ek pal ke liye
main bhi madhosh hua tha,
apne hi khayalo mein
kuch behosh hua tha.

jab log kehate hain
ki maine pyaar kiya hai,
tab man udaas hoke sochta,
mera bhi dil kabhi bekraar hua tha.

tum chaahe jaha bhi raho
par tum khush rahana,
ghar kisi ka basana
par tum chup rahana.

na kerna kabhi zikr us pal ka
jo jeevan mein aaye the,
bhool jana ki hum dono
kabhi muskuraaye the.

tumhe eid ka chand kahu
ya kahu jeeta hua lamha,
zindagi jiye ja raha hoon
na rahta kabhi tannha.

teri yaade bahut hain
bita hua jazba bahut hai
jeene ke liye insaan ko
pyaar ka ek lamha hi bahut hai.

waqt ke sath wo bhi badal gayi

teri intezaar mein humne naiyna bichaye rakhe tha,
shaam dhal gayi magar darwaza khulla rakha tha,

chiragon ko bujhne na diya humne kabhi,
unki rahon ko roushan sada rakha tha,

loog kehte hain waqt ke sath wo bhi badal gayi,
meri nazron mein tasveer thi uski,
humne waqt pe nazar kaha rakha tha.

woh pyar ko khel samjhti hai

hassne ki kasam li thi aanshu dene wale ne,
in aankhon mein aanshun to ho,
bas usse khabar na ho,

aashkon se likhi ek dastaan hai zindagi meri,
jo in aankon mein aask na ho to kyun na ho,

woh maasum hai itna ki pyar ko khel samjhti hai,
usko nadan keh lo logon bas bewafa na kaho.

tera intezaar baki hai.

dard saath hai mere aur gam mera saathi hai,
zindagi bozhil si aur door tak udaasi hai,

maikhana ghar mera dost mera saaki hai,
khali si hai zindagi bas teri yaad baki hai,

in sukhe hoton pe aab bhi ek muskan baki hai,
tu aaye naa aaye tera intezaar baki hai.

aake chale jaate hain yeh log pyar ka khel khelke

yeh waqt aaj mere sath hai phir,

yeh waqt bhi dheere se sath kyu chord deta hai??

koi humein dil me apne bassata hai phir,
apne dil mein se kyu nikal deta hai???

pehle aapni zindagi humein bana leta hai phir,
humko hi usski zindagi mein se kyu mittata hai.

kuch pal ke liye hamari zindagi ban jata hai aur phir,
humein bataye bina hi zindagi mein se kyu chala jata hai.

karte rehte hain pyaar ki hamesha mithi mithi baatein yeh,
par wo pyaar ke naam ka hi mazak kyu bana jata hai.

aake bas chale jaate hain yeh log pyar ka khel khel ke,
aur humari zindagi ko ek majak kyu bana jate hai.

dekho aaj mohabbat ne kya naach nachahya hai

dekho aaj mohabbat ne kya naach nachahya hai,
iss badnaam shayar ka sar-e-aam aaj mazaak urdaya hai.

kehti thi saansein rahungi har pal saath tere,
ab inn saanson ne bhi mujhe yaad bana ke fiza mein lehraya hai,dekho aaj mohabbat ne kya naach nachahya hai...

kaat raha tha zindagi tere aane ki aas mein,
par aaj tune apne pyar ka matlab mujhe samjhaya hai,

mere haath mein paiymana to hontho mein zeher lagaya hai,dekho aaj mohabbat ne kya naach nachahya hai...

raaton ko kabhi tere khawaab dekha karta tha,
par aaj tune unhi khawabon ke chilman mein aag lagaya hai,
aaj iss dard ke mausam mein khud ko akela maine paya hai.

ab to yahan jeene hi mere liye zaya hai,dekho aaj mohabbat ne kya naach nachahya hai,
iss badnaam shayar ka sar-e-aam mazaak urdaya hai.

I am blessed with loneliness

yes, I am blessed!
but I must confess that I have loneliness…

times when my sky is filled with gray
and the pain won’t seem to go away…

but then I have times when I feel great!
so much so, I even want to celebrate!

basking in my saviour’s grace,
knowing there is a smile on everyone's face…

but day in and day out,
through the good and the bad,
through the tough and the sad,
through the love and the hate,

I know that I am blessed,
regardless.

milna bichardna

patjhard mein bikharte patton ko,
kisne dekha hoga girte der tak,

shaakh se tut ke girte huye unka,
dard mehsus kiya hoga kisne der tak,

koun janata hai unka dard?
milna bichardna niyati sahi,

bichardne ka gam phir bhi satata hai,
bichardna hi to milan ki shuruat hai,

annt se hi to aarambh hota hai,
mere iss jeevan ki tarah.

shayad humare pyar ka imtehaan yeh judai hai

suna tha sapne tutate bhi hain
aaj unko tutate huye dekh bhi liya,
meri hi is kismat ne mujhse
itna barda dhokha kiya.

aisa toofan aaya zindagi mein
ke saare raaste kho gaye,
kal tak jo apne the
pal mein begaane ho gaye.

dil deta hai sadaye aaj bhi unko,
rakh ke ummeed ki laut aaye woh baharein,
aakhir kab tak jiye hum aise
beete kal ki yaadon ke sahare.

shayad meri kismat mein hai kuch kami
ki yeh saza humne paayi hai,
bewafai to kabhi ki na thi lekin,
shayad humare pyar ka imtehaan yeh judai hai.

darta hai tuta dil mera

pujte the jis pyaar ko
dil aaj ussi ke naam se darta hai,
maanga tha jise duaaon mein har dam,
dil aaj ussi ke naam se darta hai.

kiya tha pyaar humne bhi kabhi ek sangdil se,
dil aaj ussi ke naam se darta hai,
us sangdil ne bhi bahut jataana chaaha pyaar magar sab jhuta,
dil aaj ussi ke naam se darta hai.

sajaaye the anginat sapne us sangdil ke saath humne,
dil aaj usi ke naam se darta hai,
kiye the janm-janmon ke waade us sangdil ke saath humne,
dil aaj ussi ke naam se darta hai.

tord gayi woh sangdil humare sajaaye saare sapne,
dil aaj ussi ke naam se darta hai,
tord gayi woh sangdil humare kiye sab waade,
dil aaj ussi ke naam se darta hai,

maine dil ko samjhaaya,
woh sangdil kabhi tera thi hi nahi,
na jaane kyun dil is baat se inkaar karta hai.

keh keh ke baar baar samjha liya,
behla liya dil ko maine
na jaane kyun dil abhi bhi darta hai.

bhula diya hai usko maine dil ke har kone se,
ab dil mera usse yaad karne se darta hai,
uski baaton ko, yaadon ko zehan se nikaal diya,
dil aaj uski yaadon se darta hai.

toot chuka hai vishwaas mera pyaar se,
ubb chuka hai dil in pyaar karne waalon se,
jinhein dekh kar mujhe eersha
aur jalan ke siwa kuch nahi hota.

par dil ab in sabse darta hai,
dil... dil ke jazbaat se darta hai,
dil har baat se darta hai,
pyar ke naam se darta hai,
darta hai tuta dil mera.

mujh mein koi jaan nahi

jism hoon main per
mujh mein koi jaan nahi,
dil to hai paas per
ab ismein koi armaan nahi,

chinn gayi jo khushiyaan
to rahi koi iccha baki nahi,
chala gaya jo ek baar,
phir wo lauta wapis nahi.

cha gaya jo uska khumaar
chahat bhi ab koi baki nahi,
kho diya jo pyar ek baar
mila wo phir dubara nahi,

kaash! mil jati wo mujhe
to usse jane kabhi deta nahi,
jism hoon main per
mujh mein koi jaan nahi.

mere khawaabon ka mahal hakeekat mein saara ujard gaya

mere khawaboon ki duniya kitni maasoom kitni haseen,
lagti thi mujhe yeh duniya ab tak na jaane kitni rangeen,

ek din to hakeekat ki patharon se inko takraanaa hi tha,
mere sab khawaboon ko toot kar bikhar jaanaa tha,

mere in khwabon mein shaamil thi bachapan ki maasoomiyat,
jawaani ka pyar aur dono kaa alhardpan,

lekin hakeekat mein bachapan ki maasoomiyat,
jawaani kaa pyaar aur,
dono ka alhardpan khwaab ke saath hi bikhar gaya,

mere saare khwaabon kaa roop ek dam bigard gaya,
mere khawaabon ka mahal hakeekat mein saara ujard gaya,

kaash koi aake in khawaabon ko tootne se bachaaye rakhati,
mujhe hakeekat mein jagaa kar in khwaabon ko sajaaye rakhti,

mere saare khwaab yun toot kar bikhar naa jaate,
yeh khawaab saare mere hakeekat mein bhi sawar jaate.

aapni mohabbat ko ruswa kar tum chale gaye

humein dil mein basakar kyun tum chale gaye,
yuhi pyaar mein tarsa kar tum chale gaye,

ek aakhri umeed ke sahare jee rahe the,
jo zakhmo ko dilse laga kar tum chale gaye,

tumare sare-rah pe rakhe hain kadam tum chale gaye,
raaho mein maine bikhere phool aur tum chale gaye,

aapni mohabbat ko ruswa kar tum chale gaye,
iss dil mein khile phoolon mein tum masal kar chale gaye..

just you wait and see

I try so hard to make you happy,
but nothing seems to work.
I do my best to find ways to love you,
but nothing seems to have worked.

I give you my time in hopes that you will return the favor,
but all I get is criticism and disappointment…

I am trying to be positive, but you keep being negative.
I don’t know how much more of this I can take
before I break or run away.

I know your life isn’t perfect and neither is mine,
so why do you put others down all the time?
is it a game to you that you’re trying to win?
don’t you know you are going to lose it all in the end?

I can feel myself drowning in a pool of self doubt,
wondering how it’s all going to end…

God knows I don’t have a lot of money to spend,
but when I find an open door and ‘earn’ my wings,
I am going to soar!

and once  I am gone,  

I am not coming back,
I just want you to know that.

there's a time for everything and when it’s my time,
I am going to go.
I am going to take the dice and let it roll,
and leave the rest in God’s control.

someday I will be somebody,
and I will make a difference
just you wait and see...

now I am upset and filled with regret

I thought I knew you,
I thought I had you figured out…

you seemed like the ‘nice girl’
every boy dreams about!
you took the time to be my friend,
especially when we hung out over the weekends.

when you would call me to say, ayhey!
man, did that make my day!

but then things changed when your
true colors started to show,

and all the nice things
you did went out the window.

you acted like a jerk
and did things that really hurt.

and when I tell you how I feel
what’s your reply?

‘that’s just the way I am,
you wouldn’t understand,
so don’t even try.’

so now I am upset…
and filled with regret
for giving you a part of my heart
and in the end,
allowing you to break it.

be careful concerning what we say to one another

words can cheer you up
when you are down or cause you to stumble
and hit face first onto the ground.

words can touch your heart
or make you feel like you’re falling apart.

words can inform you of good news
or make your heart almost stop when you
find out that someone you knew is dead.

words can unite or cause us to fight!
words can be sweet and sweep us off our feet
or words can be mean and cut us really deep.

words can inspire and fill our hearts with desire
or words can perspire and make us feel like a liar.

words can bring life to one thing and death to another,
so let us be careful concerning what we say to one another.

stuck at one place

a strange feeling of stillness has crept into my life,
time’s flying literally, and I am stuck at one place…

I am growing as a professional, getting closer to set goals,
that’s where I wanted to be but it’s not exciting me any more…

the more I am getting there, timelines are getting squeezed,
lesser time I have for myself and lesser space for mental peace…

everything has become monotonous, fewer are things that change,
with no real activity, all seems to have gone out of shape…

something’s got to happen as I just want to break free,
long it has been since I spent on myself even a single day.

kaise kahein ki hum kaise jee rahein hain

ek ke baad ek musibat jhel rahe hain,
ek ho ke bhi tanha hum jee rahe hain,

kaun samjhe humare dil ka haal,
kaun jaane hum saans kaise le rahe hain,

juda ho ke to aadha jeevan kar liya apna,
bas us aadhe ko poora karne ki koshish kar rahe hain,

mushkilein hain jo kabhi daman nahi chordi humara,
kya kahein ki kis nate jheel rahe hain..

saath ho ke bhi saath nahi mera,
kaise kahe kaise unse door hum jee rahe hain,

kathinaaiyan aati hain kabhi darr ki shakal mein,
kaise batayein hum ki kaise saamna kar rahe hain,

saath jeene marne ki kasmein kha ke bhi saath nahi aaj,
kaise kahein hum kaise jee rahe hain,

bas marr rahe hain har pal har shaam,
unhein yaad kar kar bas khud ko koss rahe hain,

kaise kahein ki hum kaise jee rahein hain,
bas saansein chal rahi hain aur wakt kaat rahe hain..

what more can I do

scars remain with pain inside,
my heart holds hurt that I cannot hide,
bruised and broken
torn and tattered
a world I once knew has been shattered…
I reach out to you
and you push me away.
I try to explain it,
but you laugh it away…
so what more can I say?
what more can I do?


nothing will ever be good enough for you...so why do I try??

aaj sabse jada karta hun unhi se nafrat

ye kya ho raha hai, ye kyun ho raha hai?
kya theek hai,  jo kuch bhi ho raha hai?

har aahat par lagta hai kisi ne dil ko pukaara,
dusre hi pal mehsus hua ki jhut hai ye saara,

nahi jaanta kya sach hai aur kya jhut,
gar yun hi chalta raha to
jaaonga main apni zindagi se ruth,

woh pyar ke kaabil hi nahi thi,
phir kyun dil uska intzaar karta hai,

woh pyaar ke naam par ek dhabba hai,
phir kyun yeh manne se yeh dil inkaar karta hai,

jis shaks se mujhe mohabbat huyi thi,
woh shaks to kahi kho gayi hai,

jo shaks mere saamne ab hai,
yeh woh nahi hai jisse mujhe mohabbat huyi thi

nahi jaana unhone kabh bhi ki
kitni mohabbat karta tha unse main,

lekin ab woh yeh jaan hi le to acha hoga,
ki aaj sabse jada karta hun unhi se nafrat main.

bheed mein chala aa raha tha ki tu nazar aa gayi

ye sab soch kar hi ghabra sa gaya main aaj,
khoon ke aanshu roya aur,
khud se kitne sawaal kar baitha main aaj,

kabhi tu lagti thi jaise meri deewani hai,
aur aaj apna hoke bhi tu kitni begani hai,

bheed mein chala aa raha tha ki tu nazar aa gayi,
baat karna chahata tha tujhse,
par dil mein magar shabd aa gaya,

aankhein jaise hi takri teri un gehri aankhon se,
dil bebas hone laga meri un tez saanson se,

kadam chahate the tere paas chalkar chale jaayein,
kehna bahut kuch tha par ashk naino se chalakte jaayein,

naa hum kuch keh sake naa woh kuch keh paaye,
naa jaane kaisi lachaari se ek doorse ko dekhte jaayein,

bheegein thi palkein humari askhon ki chandni se,
un pyaar bhari aankhon mein bhi par ashk kahan ruk paaye,

bardhaya haath phir unhone apna,
hum kahan apna haath unhein de paaye,

jo berukhi, jo doori ban gayi naa chahate huye bhi darmiyaan,
woh doori aaj ek mulakaat se kaise mit jaaye,

kya woh chahate hain humein aaj bhi,
bas yehi hum aaj tay naa kar paaye,

ye sab soch kar hi ghabra sa gaya main,
kiye kitne sawaal khud se jinke jawab naa mil paaye.

humein kisi ki bhi ab koi hasrat nahi hai

koi unko keh de na ab mujhe aur satayein,
mujhe ab sehne ki aadat nahi hai,

na de mujhko ab wo dard ka aur pyaale,
mujhe ab peene ki aadat nahi hai,

nahi koi khwahish saahil ki humko,
humein manzilon ki bhi ab chahat nahi hai,

bhale koi aaye saath de ya humein chord de,
humein kisi ki bhi koi hasrat nahi hai,

“raaj” khud kaid hai apne hi sawalon mein,
unke jawaab ka ab koi intzaar bhi nahi hai.

hum naa samajh paaye yeh duniyadaari

ajab dil ki duniya, ajab iski yaari,
hum naa samajh paaye yeh duniyadaari,

apne dil lagaayein, apne hi rulaayein,
dil ne jataayi humse aksar yeh laachaari,

hum chaahein aapko aur woh bhi apne hi,
kal aap dil dukhaaye aaj hai unki baari,

hum jinse bhi mile, sab log waaiz the,
ek hum mein nahi bas, itni samajhdaari,

apni taraf se karte purzor koshishein hum,
har koshish mein bhari humne imaandaari,

khudaaya, tu jahaan mein ek hi mukammal,
sikha de mujhko kuch apni adaakaari…

janam janam ka saath ho jaise

kisi ko chaahane se kya hota hai,
dil achcha hone se kya hota hai,

kisi ko dil mein basaane se kya hota hai,
jab usko mujh se pyaar hi nahi,

usko apna kehne se kya hota hai,

mujhe rula kar khush hota hai aise,

meri hi aashuon ki usko pyaas ho jaise,

kal raat rooya tha aise jaise,
chaah ho dil mein kuch aise,

phir kabhi savera naa ho,
sharir pe zindagi ka basera naa ho,
dil pe kisi dhadkan kaa pehra naa ho.

aankhein moonda tha aise jaise,
kabhi aankho mein roshni na ho jaise,

kis hakk ki baat ker gayi woh,
kab hakk maanga maine usse,

maana dil haar chuka hoon,
dil chura lo chaahe jaise,

dil pe kabu aab bhi hai aise jaise
dil mera aab bhi mere paas hi ho jaise,

naa hakk chaahiye tum pe mujh ko,
naa koi hakk de hi paaounga,

tumko chaah meri mout ki hai,
tumhaari khushi puri kar doon kaise,

bebas laachaar hoon aise  jaise,
apni mout pe bhi mera vash na ho jaise,

toot jaata hoon aise,
phir naa jurd paaounga jaise,

aaj socha hoon kuch aise,
kyoun roo doon uski baato se aise,

kyoun asar ho uske nafart ka aise,
kyou naa bhool jaaoun usko aise,
woh ek darwaana sapna ho jaise,

par dil chahata hai,
saari khtaaono ko maaff kar doon aise,
mujh par puraa hakk ho tumhaara jaise,

jee chahata hai bassa loon aankho mein aise,
jeevan ka koi haseen sapna ho jaise,

sajja lun tere yaadon ko aise,
gehno se sajji khushiyouno se lardi dulhan ho jaise,

kyoun naa jord lun tumse dil ka rishta aise,
janam janam ka saath ho jaise.

a second chance to make things right

a cluttered life,
a cluttered past,
searching for something that will last…

trying to shed the dead skin that
has been your mask.

you are trying to hold on with all that you have
but there’s nothing left for you to grab.

so you crawl back into you little ‘hole’,
where at least you have some ‘control’

so you snort it up,
you drink it down,
you hit the water and start to drown

you lose consciousness,
you star to dream.

God whispers your name,

a hand reaches for yours and pulls you up,
when they get you to the top
they check your pulse to see if your heart has stopped.

you come back to life and begin to breathe again,
you open your eyes to see who saved you,
but you are all alone lying on a pier
in the middle of nowhere.

left wondering how you got there,
so you look to the sky
and realize why you didn’t die,

God was giving you a second try,
a second chance to make things right,
to step back into the light
and continue the fight to live this life.

despite the cost,
despite your loss,
despite your pain,
to know that god is in control
and he won’t ever let you go.

yet.. life goes on

So hard to say it
unable to type Goodbye
made my fingers paralyzed.

Not to make it hard on you,
Not to make you suffer like I do.

I smiled with tears in my eyes.

Sent you a flower
to stay with you never die.
I walked away thinking
we are still friends.

But this feeling didn’t seem right

Something did really hurt..

deep.. so deep inside.

Tears dropped so hard
not from my eyes
Tears looked so red
from my heart I realized.

Try to forget my pains. Go!
Fly away.. never look back

Keep flying don’t stop..
you found your way..

How can I fly?
You were my wings

How can I cry?
My tears dried up

when you took away with you my feelings..
Yet.. Life goes on..

shayed kabhi sakoon ki neend humko bhi aayegi

dekhta hoon jo lehron ko to aksar yeh sochta hoon,
aate jaate lehron mein jeevan ko dhoondhta hoon,

chandni mein leharein yun damak jata hai,
jaise mohabbat jawani pe parwaan chadata hai,

koi yaad lehar chord jaati hai aanshoon ki,
tasveer tair jaati hai beete huye lamhon ki,

kabhi khile the, lab muskuraye mere bhi the,
aankhon mein humne bhi rang mahal banaye the,

jaise lahrein laut jaati hai sahil se apne lipat ke,
humne bhi chahat ka silsila nibhaya hai unke liye dua karke,

jaane aur kaha tak ab ye hamari deewangi humko le jayegi,
sochta hoon yeh kabhi kisi raat,
shayed sakoon ki neend humko bhi aayegi.

kyu mohabbat mein dil ka yeh aalam ho jata hai

kisi ki yaad se dil dhadak jata hai,
lakh samjhaye aankhon ko par ashk chalak jata hai,

kabhi pass hoke bhi bahut door ho jata hai,
koi duriyon se bhi dil ko chu jata hai,

kuch kahne ko yeh labz jurd nahi paate,
to kabhi aankhon se dil ka dard byaan ho jata hai,

kyu mohabbat mein dil ka yeh aalam ho jata hai,
har chehare mein yaar ka chehra nazar aata hai,

kyu har kadam pe kasautti ka padav nazar aata hai,
dil yeh bahut bebus, bahut udaas nazar aata hai,

jo basta hai is dil ki dhadkano mein,
kyu dil ussi se roz mil nahi paata hai,

aye khuda kyu mohabbat mein yeh mukaam aajata hai,
naam tera lene se pehle naam yaar ka labon pe aa jata hai.

a place without pain

I need a sanctuary all my own,
a place where I can be alone,

alone with my thoughts,
alone with my dreams,
alone with my sanity,
alone with my screams 

a place I can run to when I am afraid,
a place to rest at the end of the day,

a place without problems,
a place without pain,
a place without rain,

a place where I can unwind and rest my mind,
and let all my worries fade away.

where is my life going?

My life is a bad dream,
Sometimes it gets so hard I want to scream!

I am in disguise, 

so no one will recognize what I really feel inside.

This pain is too much…
I can’t shake it,
I can’t take it anymore.

These feelings eat me up inside,
they are just too hard to hide.

This is my alibi…
tears stream down my face,

I lose sight of God’s grace.
I am falling into a dark pit, with no light in it.

My world is closing in with evil thoughts of sin.
My heart is shattered, torn, and tattered…

The people I see who think they know me have no idea what lies beneath.
They see a girl with good grades and a smiling face,
not knowing what’s really the case.

I am so insecure and unsure about myself, 

where is my life going?

Will this roller coaster end?
It gets harder with each turn and bend along the way.

I have thoughts of suicide,
but if I die, what then?

What happens in the end?

I take the dice and roll it twice.
Now my hands are as cold as ice.

I try to stand, but fall down and crawl.
I’m getting weak.
These wounds are just too deep.

The blood is thick and red as wine,

The morphine can’t ease the pain.

I look down at my clothes as they begin to stain,
and at the needles piercing my veins.

The monitor says I have a flat line, 

but this can’t be me, I am not dying!

I see the light, 

now I must fight with all my might,
I must survive and stay alive!

I hear a voice that soothes my soul, 

now I start to gain control.

The flat line breaks and starts to climb as
I grab hold of this hand reaching for mine.

The darkness fades and turns to grey,
The sun comes out and saves the day,
now I know I will be okay.

Now I thank god for making it through the night,
as I begin to see the light.

Life is tough and the road I walk is rough,
but now I know that I will make it through,
as long as I have you my lord.

Dare to be different

Dare to be different,
to stand out among a crowd.

Don’t be afraid to let your voice be heard!
Scream it out loud!

When others try to tear you down,
share the love that you have found.

Stand up for what you know is right,
Don’t back down when you need to fight.

Love with your heart and not with your head,
Don’t let those three little words go left unsaid.

Be a shoulder to lean on,
but not a doormat to be walked on!

Enjoy what you have for as long as it lasts…
embrace your future and forget your past.

I make mistakes too…

Who am I to judge you?
Or the things you do?
Because if you think my life is perfect,
you haven’t got a clue…

I sin just like everybody else…
I make mistakes too…
so who am I to point a finger at you?

Who am I to cast another stone at you?
Amongst all the others that have been thrown…

I don’t know your future
or all of your past…
but I know this…
only love will last!

So who am I to turn you away?
To say that you are just not good
enough to hang out with me! ?

The choices we make everyday…
the words we choose to say…
The people we let in and those we turn away…
affect our lives in so many ways!

Love covers a multitude of sin…
and it’s so true, because if god didn’t forgive
me for the stupid things I do,
I don’t know what I would do!

So live in the present and forgive your past!
Don’t let those things you regret hold you back,
because this life is too short to worry about that.

I wish..

I wish you could see yourself the way you really are.
I wish you could look beyond your scars.
I wish you could find the light at the end of the tunnel.
I wish you could feel the love that’s all around you.
I wish you could break free from the chains that hold you captive.
I wish you could taste the sweet things in life.
I wish you could touch the stars and see that they really aren’t that far…
I wish you could be who you are meant to be,
Instead of hiding away from everybody

ek pal jeekar phir marne chale aaye

bechain dil ko behlana tha,
inn aankhon ko sukun dilana tha,
teri ek jhalak paane chale aaye,
teri galiyon mein ek pal jeene chale aaye.

andhere mein deep jalana hai,
ruthi kismat ko phir se manana hai,
ye daman tere daar pe failane chale aaye,
teri galiyon mein ek pal jeene chale aaye.

mousam badal raha hai,
asman aur aankhein dono baras rahi hai,
apne hi aashko mein bhigne chale aaye,
teri galiyon mein ek pal jeene chale aaye.

lab khamosh hai dil ki dhadkan tez hai,
dosto ab woh aane ko hai shayed,
sari duriya aur shikwe mitane chale aaye,
teri galiyon mein ek pal jeene chale aaye.

har ek chehare mein woh hi nazar aane lagi,
har raste mein uski aahat mehsus hone lagi,
hum apne intezar ki imteha dekhne chale aaye,
teri galiyon me ek pal jeene chale aye.

woh aayegi aur muskurayegi,
mujhe gale se lagakar, pyaar apna jatayegi,
yeh jhuta bharam lekar chale aaye,
teri galiyon mein ek pal jeene chale aaye.

woh aakar mooh pher kar chali gayi,
nazre churakar, dil jalakar chali gayi,
uske badalte dil ko dekhne chale aaye,
ek pal jeekar phir marne chale aaye,

jaisa socha tha waisa kuch na huwa,
aaj phir teri galiyon mein dil mayus huwa,
adhuri tannha zindagi mein laut kar chale aaye,

apni hi galiyon mein pal-pal marne chale aaye
apni hi galiyon mein pal-pal marne chale aaye.

I am dazed

you are my heart my soul,
I can still feel the beat of my heart.

how does it gone knowing that
the beat cannot reach you!

I am dazed..
you are in my words, my poems,
expressing the emotions that rest deep inside.

how do the words flow from my heart knowing that
your heart cannot feel the emotions!I am dazed..!

because I still love you

after all we have been through
the tears still fall the same way
and I am still in love with you
like I have been since that first day.

no matter how bad  I am hurting
I still have your smile in my mind
but I still cry myself to sleep
and think about you all the time.

it’s so hard to forget you
when you were my first true love
and every time I think of you
you get harder to let go off.

I wouldn’t be hurting this bad
if I haven’t loved you so much
I wouldn’t cry all the time
if I hadn’t of been so crushed.

I still wake up in the morning
with a smile on my face
but then I remember your not with me
and that smile I quickly erase.

It will take some time to forget you
but I know in my heart I will.
for now I will cry myself to sleep
because I love you still.