just you wait and see

I try so hard to make you happy,
but nothing seems to work.
I do my best to find ways to love you,
but nothing seems to have worked.

I give you my time in hopes that you will return the favor,
but all I get is criticism and disappointment…

I am trying to be positive, but you keep being negative.
I don’t know how much more of this I can take
before I break or run away.

I know your life isn’t perfect and neither is mine,
so why do you put others down all the time?
is it a game to you that you’re trying to win?
don’t you know you are going to lose it all in the end?

I can feel myself drowning in a pool of self doubt,
wondering how it’s all going to end…

God knows I don’t have a lot of money to spend,
but when I find an open door and ‘earn’ my wings,
I am going to soar!

and once  I am gone,  

I am not coming back,
I just want you to know that.

there's a time for everything and when it’s my time,
I am going to go.
I am going to take the dice and let it roll,
and leave the rest in God’s control.

someday I will be somebody,
and I will make a difference
just you wait and see...