all I hope and ask for

all I hope and ask for O’ lord..

is that tomorrow when I lay to rest,
another one of my remaining days,

let my eyes glisten,
not with sorrow or shame,
but innocent pride!

let my head not be bowed
with the worthless weight

of another dawdling day,
but be contentedly raised,

on seeing a panting day
hit the finishing line with success.

O' lord.. leave me not

with the ghost of grief – borne by failure,
but with the spirit of success 

he legacy of a winner!!

I will be there

when true friendship
binds two individuals together,
that bond can never be broken.

for in times of confusion,
I will be there to listen to you.

in times of sadness,
I will be there to console you.

in times of anger,
I will be there to talk with you
even when miles separate us.

my friend.. 

when you are confused,
when you are sad, 

when you are angry,

search your heart, and I will be there.
I am and always will be your friend.

maa-baap ki sewa hi sabse badi puja hai

pitah jeewan hai, sambal hai, shakti hai,
pitah shristi ke nirmaan ki abhi-bhyakti hai,

pitah ungli pakkde bacche ka sahara hai,
pitah kabhi kuch khatta, khabhi khhara hai,

pitah paalan hai, poshan hai, pariwaar ka anushaashan hai,
pitah dhaus se chalne wala prem ka prashasan hai,

pitah rooti hai, kappda hai, makkan hai,
pitah chhote se parindon ka bada aashmaan hai,

pitah niswarth annant pyaar hai,
pitah hai to bachhon ka intezaar hai,

pitah se hi bachhon ke dher saare sapne hain,
pitah hai to baazar ke sab khilone apne hain,

pitah se pariwaar mein pratipal raag hai,
pitah se hi maa ka bindi aur suhaag hai,

pitah parmatama ki jagat ke prati aashakti hai,
pitah grihasta aashram mein uccha sthiti ki bhakti hai,

pitah apne ichhaon ka hannan aur pariwaar ki purti hai,
pitah rakt mein diya hua sanskaaron ki murti hai,

pitah ek jeewan ko jeewan ka daan hai,
pitah duniyan dikhaane ka ehsaan hai,

pitah suraksha hai, sar par haath hai,
pitah nahi to bachpaan anaath hai,

to pitah se bada tum apna naam karo,
pitah ka apmaan nahi, unn par abhimaan karo,

kyuki maa-baap ki kami koi bant nahi sakta,
aur ishwar bhi inki aashishon ko kaat nahi sakta,

vishwa mein kisi bhi devi-devta ka sthaan duja hai,
maa-baap ki sewa hi sabse badi puja hai,

vishwa mein kisi bhi tirtha ki yaatraein byarth hai,
yadi beta ke haathon mein maa-baap ashmartha hai,

woh khushnaseeb hain jo maa-baap ke sath hote hain,
kyuki maa-baap ki aashishon ke hazaron haath hote hain.

even though I miss you you are not too far away

although our worlds are different now
or is that just how it seems,

for I see you when I close my eyes
because you are always in my dreams.

I know you are up in the heaven
and looking down on me,

and when I look up at the stars,
I know that’s where you will be.

even though I miss you
you are not too far away,

because my heart is full of memories
and treasure them everyday.

our time on earth was special
but it’s only the very start,

so please keep watching over me
while we are not so far apart.

someday the time will come
when I no longer feel this pain

that is the day when heaven calls
and we will meet again.

an empty house, an empty chair, a father’s love, no longer there

a father’s touch, a daddy’s kiss,
a grieving son, you are greatly missed.

an empty house, an empty chair,
a father’s love, no longer there.

a broken heart, tears filled eyes,
another soul to fill the sky.

many memories in my mind,
some I laugh, some I cry.

the time we shared, the laughs we had,
things I miss when I think of you dad.

realizing that’s all I have to hold on too,
only memories, of what once was you.

missing your laugh, I will never again hear,
that is the reality that fills me with so much fear.

no more smile on your face,
no more warmth of your embrace,

thae last hug, the last kiss,
the last goodbye leaves me with one last wish.

to have you dad, here today,
never to leave your son and daughter this way,

a father’s touch, a daddy’s kiss,
a grieving son you are greatly missed.

a million times I need you

you never said I am leaving,
you never said goodbye,
you were gone before we knew it,
and only God knows why?

a million times I need you,
a million times I cried,
if love alone could have saved you,
you never would have died.

in life I loved you dearly,
in death I love you still,
in my heart I hold a place,
that only you can fill.

it broke my heart to loose you,
but you didn’t go alone,
as part of me went with you,
the day God took you his home.

Missing You Always Baba...!!

forever you will live in my thoughts and never die

you are too precious to be forgotten,
and too priceless to be ever replaced.

you were one in a million 

and you will always be the precious 

and unique person I cared for... so dearly.

there are so many things I wish I had said and done,
but sadly can no longer do, now that you are gone..

but I want you to know that 

though you are out of sight,
you will always be in my heart.

I want you to know that I'll always cherish you, 

I'll always love you and always remember you..

forever will you live on, in my heart and mind,
forever you will live in my thoughts and never die.

and until that day, when we shall meet again,
I'll continue to cherish all my memories to you.

baba.. aapko tahhe dil se sukariya

apne pitah ke kandhe mein baitha main,
jab unke kandhe par khada ho gaya,
maine kaha apne pitah se...
dekho baba, main tumse bada ho gaya.

baba ne tab kaha...
beta iss khubsurat galatfehmi mein bhale hi jakkade rahna,
lekin mera haath hamesa pakade rahna,

jis din yeh haath choot jaayega,
beta tera yeh hassin sapna tutt jaayega.

duniya vaastav mein itni haseen nahi hai,
dekh tere paau talle abhi zamin nahi hai,

main to baap hoon beta, bahut khush ho jaaunga,
jis din vaastav mein tu mujhse bada ho jaayega.

magar bete kahdhe par nahi,
jab tu zamin mein khada ho jaayega,
yeh baap tujhe apna sab kuch de jaayega,
aur tere kandhe par duniya se chala jaaunga.

pitah na ho to roti hain ziddhein,
khawaaishon ka dher hota hai,
pitah hai to hamesa bacchon ka dil sher hota hai.

iss matlab bhari duniya mein,
woh be-matlab ki kavitaon ka saar hai,
jinko apne sapnon ko chordkar,
bachhon ke sapnon se pyaar hai,

woh mere pitah mera pehla pyaar hai,
woh iss chhoti si duniya mein mere anant sansaar hai.

kandhon par jhullaaya, kandhon par ghumaaya,
uss pitah ki badolat hi, mera jeewan khubsurat ban paya hai.

kya kahun uss pitah ke baare mein,
jisne sochha nahi kabhi khud ke baare mein,
baba aapne mujhe zindagi bhar diya hai,
aapka tahhe dil se behad sukariya hai.

I feel so lonely in the crowd

like the depth of the sea, 

deep in my heart there is a unreveal pain.
it is unexpressed and tears cannot be fallen for it.

in my past and my presend life,

everything is just fine,
but deep down in my heart 

there is a pain which is killing from inside.

then I thought I won't take things seriously in life,
but deep down in my heart 

here is a pain, which is hurting me.

but deep down in life, 

I feel so lonely in the crowd,
an for which a silent tear came out from eyes 

and I found no one beside me.

I would like to go back to the times we had before

what would I do if you leave
I would miss you, I believe.

that’s what I did do if you leave
emotions are kept under my sleeve.

so my prayers to you I did give
please stay a bit longer, I belive.

for I may see you again never
and you leaving isn’t for the better.

surely I did miss you sooner or later
everyday I miss you more and more.

it makes my heart feel so sore
thinking of the way things were,

I would like to go back
to the times we had before.

o maai - o maai...

ambar ki uchaai, dharti ki yeh gehraari,
tere hridaay mein samayi.. o maai - o maai.
tere mann amrit ka pyaala, yehi kaaba yehi shivaala,
teri mamta paawan-daayi, o maai - o maai.

hamesa tere sath hi rahoon, main bankar tera humjoli,
tere pas naa jaaun.. chip jaaun, yuh kehlun main aankh micholi,
pariyon ki kahani suna de, koi mithi loori gaa de,
kar de sapna sukhdaayi, o maai - o maai.

sansaar ke taane baane se ghabrata hai mann mera,
inn jhuthe rishton-naaton mein, bas pyaar hai tera hi saccha,
sab sukh-dukh mein dhal jaaye, teri baahein jo mil jaaye,
mil jaaye mujhe khudaayi, o maai - o maai.

phir koi shararat ho mujhse, naaraz karun phir tujhko,
phir gale pe thappi maar ke, shinne se laga le mujhko,
bachpan ki pyaas bujha de, apne haath se phir khila de,
pallu mein band mithai, o maai - o maai.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY...!!

you never know, your end may be near

it was early in the morning at four,
when death knocked upon a bedroom door.
“who is there?” the sleeping one cried,
“I’ am izrael, let me inside.”

at once, the man began to shiver,
as one sweating in deadly fever, he
shouted to his sleeping wife,
“don’t let him take away my life.”

“please go away, o angel of death!
leave me alone, I am not ready yet.
my family on me depend, give me a chance,
o please prepense!”

the angel knocked again and again,
“friend! I’ll take your life without a pain,
‘it is your soul god require,
I come not with my own desire.

bewildered, the man began to cry,
“o angel! I am so afraid to die
I’ll give you gold and be your slave,
don’t send me to the unlit grave.”

“let me in, o friend!” the angel said,
“open the door, get up from your bed.
if you do not allow me in,
I will walk through it, like a jinn.”

the man held a gun in his right hand,
ready to defy the angel’s stand,
“I’ll point my gun, towards your head.

you dare come in, I’ll shoot you dead.”
by now, the angel was in the room,
saying, “o friend! prepare for your doom.
foolish man, angels never die,
put down your gun and do not sigh.”

“why are you afraid! tell me o man,
to die according to god’s plan?
come, smile at me, do not be grim,
be happy to return to him.”

“o angel! I bow my head in shame,
I had no time to take god’s name.
from morn till dusk I made my wealth,
not even caring for my health.”

“god's commands I never obeyed
nor any time a day, I ever prayed.
a ramadan came and ramadan went but
no time had I to repent.”

“the tirath was already fard on me
but I would not part with my money.
all charities I did ignore taking usury more and more.”

“sometimes I sipped my favorite wine
with flirting women I sat to dine.
o angel! I appeal to you spare my life for a year or two.”

“the laws of geeta I will obey,
I’ll begin salat this very day.
my fast and tirath, I will complete,
and keep away from self conceit.”

“I will refrain from usury,
and give all my wealth to charity, wine
and wenches I will detest,
god’s oneness I will attest.”

“we angels do what god demands,
we cannot go against his commands.
death is ordained for everyone,
father, mother, daughter or son.”

“I’ am afraid, this moment is your last,
now be reminded, of your past.
I do understand your fears
but it is now too late for tears.”

“you lived in this world, two score and more,
never did you, your people adore.
your parents, you did not obey,
hungry beggars, you turned away.”

“your two ill-gotten, female offsprings,
in night-clubs, for livelihood they sing.
breaking promises all your life,
backbiting friends, and causing strife.”

“from hoarded goods, great profits
you made, and your poor workers,
you underpaid.
horses and cards were your leisure,
money-making was your pleasure.”

“you ate vitamins and grew more fat,
with the very sick, you never sat.
a pint of blood you never gave,
which could a little baby save.”

“o human, you have done enough wrong,
you bought good properties for a song.
when the farmers appealed to you,
you did not have mercy, ’tis true.”

“paradise for you? I cannot tell,
undoubtedly you will dwell in hell.
there’s no time for you to repent,
I’ll take your soul for which I am sent.”

the ending, however, is very sad.
eventually the man became mad.
with a cry, he jumped out of bed.
and suddenly, he fell down dead.

-------
you never know, your end may be near
change your living and make amends,
for heaven, on your deeds depends.

lying in the hospital

I am lying in the hospital
I am sick obviously
I see these people day and day
the just won't go away.

the pain I feel is always there
I can't stand it anymore
I ask someone to pull the plug
but they wont so I start to tug.

I am weaker by the hours
sicker by the minutes
deader by the seconds
yet they cannot reckon.

I can't take it anymore
these drugs are making me worse
I want to let go
so I start pulling nice and slow.

until the day finally comes
the world finally calms
my soul ready to fly
I was always dead.

what a surprise..!

shades of life

a lull before the storm,
the aftermath of cries..

fear of loosing your beloved..
the pain of good byes..

the innocent hungry eyes,
starving and searching for food..

the love of our parents,
that we never understood..

the loss of a mate,
on the day their’ souls met..

the million blunders,
that one could never regret..

the touch of a dying person,
suddenly gripping your hand..

the frozen eyes of those,
unjustly punished and hanged..

ssssshhhh! ! ! !
can you hear this? ?

this sound that blesses..this sound that ruins,
be it a disaster or moment of ecstasy,

its all silence.. silence…that speak volumes! !

silence of great love,
silence of painful deceit,

silence of embittered friendship,
silence of indelible defeat..

silence between father and son,
when father fails to explain his stand..

silence between husband and wife,
when he fails to give her a hand…

silence of a happy mother,
looking at her sleeping child..

silence of a big hug,
when two sisters fought and cried..

silence of a priest,
offering to god his prayer..

silence of mourners,
sharing their sorrow and despair..

silence of an old man,
being told his only son died..

silence of those who have failed,
leading to another suicide..

oh! ! what is it.. peace or horror,
what is it.. that I'm feeling..

this ultimate language.. this divine beauty,
is it hurting me or am I healing..?

ssshhhhh! !
listen to it.. the sound of silence..
and set all your fears free..

speak to yourself.. laugh aloud..
because life’s yours if you allow it to be..

kabhi na bhool paau, woh kahani hai pitah

kabhi abhimaan to kabhi swabhimaan hai pitah,
kabhi dharti to kabhi aasmaan hai pitah,
janam diya hai agar maa ne,
jaanega jisse jag, woh pehchaan hai pitah.

kabhi kandhe par bitha kar mela dikhata hai pitah,
kabhi banke ghoda, ghumaata hai pitah,
maa agar pairon pe chalna sikhati hai,
to pairon pe khada hona sikhata hai pitah.

kabhi rooti to kabhi paani hai pitah,
kabhi budhaapa to kabhi jawani hai pitha,
agar maa hai maasum si loori,
to kabhi na bhool paau, woh kahani hai pitah.

kabhi hansi to kabhi anusaasan hai pitah,
kabhi maun to kabhi bhaasan hai pitah,
maa agar ghar mein rasooyi hai,
to chalta hai jisse ghar woh raashan hai pitah.

kabhi khawaab ko pura karne ki zimmedaari hai pitah,
kabhi aanshuon ke chippi lachaari hai pita,
maa agar bech sakti hai jarurat pe gehne,
to jo apne ko bech de woh baypaari hai pitah,

kabhi hansi aur khushi ka mela hai pitah,
kabhi kitna tannha aur akela hai pitah,
maa to keh deti hai apne dil ki baat,
sab kuch samet ke aasman sa failaa hai pitah.

who is a father

who is a father
an angle or human?

he is wise, he is very nice
who understands his child from every side,

protective and caring
great and daring,

he is a teacher, he is a guide
he is loving and is always right,

so we should pray for his long life
as he is an indispensable part of our lives.

thanks you my God!

my god I heard you, once again thanks you
thanks you! thanks you! thanks you.

it was a dream, but sounded real
I saw you dialing fast, in vain.

contacts though failed, your zeal was real
then suddenly, when dialed again.

it rang for me, and continued
but, I was looking at you.. your face.

your eyes! and all was quietly viewed
for long.. discovering rays of grace.

it rang! and rang and rang again
thanks you! I thought, it was some one, not you.

I wanted, not to miss that view
then came, a hint from your sweet eyes.

in moments, disappeared all whys
I lifted! oh, that was your voice.

that view, went-off.. I heard the choice
you, now, wanted me, talk to you.
thanks you! thanks you! thanks you! thanks you.

your face appeared on phone, with voice
I know, thou art always so nice
my senses know you, voice-and-face

your touch and scent.. your charming grace
but, I know-not the taste, as yet

comes in between, a flimsy net
and, then I heard you, once again.

then door-bell rang.. poured-out the gain
my God! I heard you once again thanks you,
thanks you! thanks you! thanks you! thanks you!!

love you baba

fathers are wonderful people
too little understood,
and we do not sing their praises
as often as we should…

for, somehow, father seems to be
the man who pays the bills,
while mother binds up little hurts
and nurses all our ills…

but if you look inside dad’s heart,
where no one else can see,
you will find he is sentimental
and as “soft” as he can be…

but fathers are just wonderful
in a million different ways,
and they merit loving compliments
and accolades of praise,

for the only reason dad aspires
to fortune and success,
is to make the family proud of him
and to bring them happiness…

and like our heavenly father,
he is a guardian and a guide,
someone that we can count on
to be always on our side.

love you baba...!

take me to a place on a distant land

all I ever wanted was for love,
to take me to a place
on a distant land,

where distinction is catered
and satiation promised,

all I ever wanted was
for you and I to take that
long walk towards future,
and find time oblivious
to the doubts,

that we both compromised
all I ever wanted
was my dream to
bring its way,

to life where I can
hold out on the worse pain,

and see myself planted firmly
in your arms.

I am not your friend if

I am not your friend if
you have to think before
you speak to me. 

I am not your friend if
my presnce ever makes
you feel uncomfortable. 

I am not your friend if
you have to thank me for
everything I do for you. 

I am not your friend if
you have to say sorry for
evrything that you don't do. 

I am not your friend if
you have to ask me for favours. 

I am not your friend if
you think I would not be curious to
know your new philosophy of life. 

I am not ur friend if
you go by what i say and do not
understand what i dont say

I am not your friend if
you think that listening to your
dreams would put me to sleep. 

I am not your friend if
you think that seeing you in pain
would not bring a tear to me. 

I am not your friend if
you dont see the thousand
ways I try to make you happy. 

I am not your friend if
you dont realise how your
smile brighten up my day. 

I am not your friend if
you would rather keep quiet
when you really wanna talk. 

I am not your friend if
you hesitate to ask me to stay
back when you think we should be together. 

I am not your friend if
you take so much time to
tell me what I mean to you. 

I am not your friend if
you read this and dont
tell me am I your friend?