do you feel what I feel..

do you see what I see..
standing right in front of me,
a woman with all the right curves,
but a girl with her whole life to serve. 

do you hear what I hear..
a faded whisper in my ear,
my future dreams all in one,
a little girl wanting to have fun. 

do you feel what I feel..
my heart beating, it’s quite real,
all of my memories fading away,
all of my fears are here to stay. 

do you smell what I smell..
no one elsle can tell,
its the smell of my own defeat,
the smell of teardrops falling at my feet. 

do you taste what I taste..
it taste like victory coming a little too late,
the taste of the love that I want to find,
the taste of the fear that I try to hide. 

once you do what I do,
all my sayings will come true.

who, where, what are you?

sometimes I find you a reality,
sometimes a dream,
and sometimes you become an illusion.

who are you?

sometimes I find you deep within me,
sometimes you are around me,
and sometimes you are lost.

where are you?

sometimes I find you touching my heart,
sometimes holding my hand,
and sometimes you are nowhere to be seen.

what are you?

sometimes I find my heart speaking to you,
sometimes my ears listen to you,
and sometimes I crave for your voice.

how are you?

sometimes I find you to be a part of me,
but I always want to be a part of you,
sometimes I find it a fact
and sometimes fake.

who am I to you?

life is like a pack of cards..

life is like a pack of cards..

when fall in love.. its alll hearts,
when married.. its all flowers,

when rich.. its all diamonds,
and when dead.. its all spades.

apni gazlon se tera naam mitana aasan nahi

iss dil se teri yaad ko bhulana aasan nahi,
aur darde dil ko dil mein chupana bhi aasan nahi.

kahta hoon sabse koi naata nahi mera tumse,
aur apni gazlon se tera naam mitana bhi aasan nahi.

sochta hoon kyon chup hoon teri bekhabari par,
aur tumhi ko dil ka haal sunana bhi aasan nahi.

woh dard bankar meri aankhon mein rahti hai,
aur usse palkon se bahana bhi aasan nahi.

uski yaadein mere daaman mein nashtar chubhati hai,
aur duniya mein iss daulat ko lutana bhi aasan nahi.

apne dil se uske pyaar ko mitana mushkil hai magar,
aur uske dil mein apni mohabbat phir jagana aasan nahi. 

I am the one you can’t forget

the day of my entry was really good,
some replies change my mood,
but I make up my mind to post,
I will be your friend up most,

must say a thing to you,
demanding positive replies from you,
as i am a new member give me support,
I need some help but a little short,

I am sure you will understand,
be my friend and grab my hand,
because I am the one you can’t forget,
and be the one I can bet,

be with me my friends here,
and I will give you reasons to cheer.

main bura tha magar itna nahi tha

zindagi se to koi shikwa nahi tha,
jeene ka bhi to bahana nahi tha. 

haal-e-dil jo mera sunke roo pade,
mujhe woh sach bhi batana nahi tha. 

main kyun na baith kar kosta apni kismat ko,
jo mera tha, woh ab apna nahi tha. 

dekh kar khud ko usmein rona lazmi tha mera,
woh aaina tha, koi sapna nahi tha. 

sunke barbadi meri mehfilein sajayi tumne,
main bura tha, magar itna nahi tha. 

ke jinke sath kat gaya tamam zindagi ka safar,
aakhiri mord par jana, unmein koi apna nahi tha.

kehte-kehte jaise kalam bhi roo pada,
woh haqeekat tha, mera afsana nahi tha.

it's not just for me.. it's for us

it's not just for me,  it's for us 
let's live, we can't escape this rush? 

I mean yes, this wild rush, 
we can't avoid the life as such. 

it's tough as much, it's blessed as much, 
it's worth living, it's worth winning, 

and once one has companionship, 
of your mind-set one must worship, 

I want to live to the best of me, 
matters not one is he or she? 

let all these blooms belong us all, 
face life as such, blush or non-blush, 

let's live.. we can't escape this rush, 
let be it a rise, let be it a fall. 

you came in arms, moistened the palms, 
pulse grew bouncing, declining calms, 

oh love it's love all, pounding love 
and it's pure pang, who's hawk? 

who's dove? these lovely skies, these lovely stars 
are fruits of love or endless wars? 

come, hold my hand, it's tough and rough, 
don't go that far? it's all enough. 

don't kiss me if it comforts not, 
but touch me for, my veins are hot. 

please touch me, might I fail to live, 
if you can't take, why did you then give? 
it's not for me but for us both.

there is still a place for you in my heart and soul

when I find my self thinking of you
more then I should, 
never stop myself even if I could,

thinking about how I dream of your kisses, 
your warmth, your presence, 

evertime I see you 
I want to shout how I feel for you.

I want to hold you and 
show you what we had was real.

I remember the first time you said I love you, 
and I said I love you too.

my heart soared because 
I could always count on you to make me smile,

no matter what you still have such devastation to my heart, 
that there is still a place for you in my heart and soul, 
when ever you decide to began from a new start.

I still think of you

since you are gone, 
all is an empty space, 
nothing is the same.

I return to the places we visited, 
I feel your presence, 
I live all those memories again and again, 
wishing you were there.

memories all around me 
bringing it back all so real, 
I remember all of those days 
wishing you were there.

every lonely night and day, 
I go through the days and nights, 
I still think of you, 
yes I do... 

seeking response perhaps my foolishness

seeking response 
perhaps it is my foolishness, 
or you may say it is my foolhardiness, 
for trying to love you always!

whether you recognise my love’s mission, 
or fail to see it due to an erroneous vision, 
or due to your materialistic ambition, 
will not alter my loves adulation!

as long as I shall live on this earth, 
and till such time I finally depart, 
love shall flow from all the chambers 
of my loving heart!

do not try to call me back 
when it gets too late, 
for no one then can alter our fate, 
and your response will remain unheard, 
since none can return from the world of the dead!

but a change of heart can change our fate, 
to make our love immortalised instead.

so little in common between you and me

since you only judge me for my lack of success, 
no mister you I am not out to impress, 

we look at life one might say quite differently, 
and on what constitutes success you and I don’t agree, 

the people with heaps of money to you matter most, 
to these sort of people you do drink your toast, 

for human compassion you never allow, 
to publicly proclaimed high achievers you have chosen to bow, 

on life you have your own ideas and that suits me fine, 
and your sense of values are different to mine, 

and you air your opinions and that’s a good thing, 
but this not of your heroes that I wish to sing, 

we look at life one could say quite differently, 
and so little in common between you and me.

life is an art of drawing without an eraser

our life is neither a remix nor a remake,
where the actor, the script, and the music
always change!

each single life remains as an unique
and as an original piece,

where our individuality asserts 

and finally peaks!

we should be grateful for this god-given life,
which is always completed in a single take!

forgetting those insipid and 

immitative remakes!

let us treat this life as a rare gift 

and a treasure,
for life is an art of drawing 

without an eraser

you never knew how I felt

you never knew how I felt,
you never returned these feelings I had for you,

all these emotions of hatred and love,
were mixed emotions.

I sent love to you
but it was never returned,
never....

you never knew how I felt,
you never returned these feelings I had for you.

when I see you with him it kills me inside,
you used to be like that with me,
and then it would die,

I sent you love
but it was never returned,
never...

you never knew how I felt,
you never returned these feelings I had for you.

and I'll always be your friend,
but I’ll never be your man.

even though it kills me inside to say,
that you’ll never look at me,
that way again,
never again...

change is good but change can hurt

change is good but change can hurt, 
it depends on how open your mind is, 
and how much your willing to give up.

change is all around us, 
and if we accept it 
we can easily move on.

but if we reject,
we can only move backwards 
and never see what tomorrow will bring. 

I look out into the horizon, 
where two opposites meet. 

all time seems to stop,
harmony and bliss exist
 for a short moment,
and all seems good.

the waves turn to diamonds,
as they gather the last rays of the summer sun.

I feel that this beautiful scene of fire
and water joining is sending a message from above.

the message being that
this time in my life is over,
but a new one has just begun.

somehow I will be fine

there will never be another you,
that can enter this heart of mine.
never again will I find happiness,
but somehow I will be fine.

there will never be another love,
that meant so much to me.
what we shared was magical,
the way love was meant to be.

I thought our dreams could come true,
our fantasy we could live.
I was hoping for a fairy tale love,
one that would never end.

but now you have managed to shatter my heart,
and completely devastate my life.
I only wanted you to love me
never bring me strife.

but mam how you fooled me,
and ripped my heart apart.
only to bring me a life of sadness,
and to hold a lonely heart.

try your best and stick out from the rest

I am tired of everything being the same,
one more life, another pointless game. 

I am tired of looking at the knife,
hoping to die, ending this meaningless life.

I am tired of looking for someone to hold,
when there’s no one there, so I am left in the cold.

I am wanting to end this life I lead,
but instead I stay while in my dreams I fled.

I wish I could just up and die,
no one would care, I was only to cry.

I wish I could help everyone,
but instead I can't, their led to the gun.

I want to be the hero and save the day,
instead I have saved zero, more lives to pay.

I don’t want you to hurt everyone out there,
just know that I am here and will forever care.

for I have been hurt countless times before,
and yet it just comes back, always haunting me for more.

I don’t want you to suffer and hurt like I did,
for there’s to much pain, I refuse to die as a kid.

and I hope you do the same because life has much to give,
it would be a shame, if you decided not to live.

so the message to this poem is to always try your best,
and try to be different, stick out from the rest.

because you are strong and some day you’ll see,
that you can belong just as it came to me.

don't stop now, you will be dead

a single soul appeared
with his hand in his pocket,
and head bowed low
alone he walks deep in thought,
where have all the flowers gone?

mile after lonely mile,
weeds the only company he keeps,
slower and slower his pace begins,
an inner voice saying
don't stop now, you will be dead!

lowering himself to the ground
he dreams of a world that once was
full of laughter hope and tears,
goodbye there is no hope

why can't this dream come true?

along time ago when I was young,
you were my friend, my laugh, my fun.

you made me happy, I looked up to you,
you granted my wish and made my dreams come true.

my best memories were of you and me,
smiling faces, best friends to be.

but lately it seems that times have changed,
yesterdays gone and we just arn't the same.

I have new friends, a new laugh, a new smile,
I made a mistake and forgetting can take a while.

but I think 12 years is long enough I payed the price,
now can I have sweet dreams tonight?

you don't like my friends, you don't want to know,
the smiles they give me, they really show.

well around you, I feel so bad,
hanging with you, makes me sad.

I can't do anything that is right,
hurting you, ruining my life.

every promise I broke, every time I lied,
every smile that vanished, everytime I cried.

why can't I be who I am,
why can't you understand,
that there my friends as well as you.
why can't this dream come true?

the name I choke on everytime

your name that I can't remember,
I met you in late november.

your name I choke on everytime,
getting caught saying your mine,

is it to late to go to the past,
time was short, it moved too fast.

I remember your lips on mine,
how we had the greatest time,

I remember your arms holding me tight,
promising me.. a life that is right,

and now here I am searching your name,
searching for something that could be the same.

but it hurts to much to say it aloud,
staring into a face in the clouds.

hoping you remember me,
hoping for something that couldnt be.

dear her name I can't remmeber,
I met you late in november.

I should have known it from the start,
because you the jerk.. who broke my heart.

I am the one to blame

words that can't be said,
stream down my face.
the cuts that bled
from your mistakes.

the secrets the lies,
the hurt and the pain,
the tears in my eyes,
but I am the one to blame.

you should have let me go,
even though I held on,
you made my heart glow,
but it was all wrong.

you may have broken my heart,
put tears in my eyes,
but I have played a part
in your demise.

I know it was a mistake
to destroy all we had,
but you made my heart break,
you made me so sad.

we loved and we lied,
we huged and spread pain,
untill you said goodbye,
but I was the one to blame.