will there ever be true happiness for someone like me

today my heart is heavy,
as I bow my head in shame,
I search for easy answers,
or someone that I can blame.

the salty tear-drops trickle
down my worn and tired face,
symbolic of what my life has been,
a sad and lonely place.

I close my eyes and ponder,
will I ever be free,
will I ever learn to love someone,
will they like the me they see?

how could I not love her,
why was I afraid?
why did I condemn her,
for mistakes that others made?

the tears they seem endless,
my life flashes before my eyes,
how much longer must I carry,
the weight of this disguise.

I close my eyes and ponder,
will I ever be free,
will I ever learn to love someone,
will they like the me they see?

will there ever be true happiness
for someone just like me?