yet.. life goes on

So hard to say it
unable to type Goodbye
made my fingers paralyzed.

Not to make it hard on you,
Not to make you suffer like I do.

I smiled with tears in my eyes.

Sent you a flower
to stay with you never die.
I walked away thinking
we are still friends.

But this feeling didn’t seem right

Something did really hurt..

deep.. so deep inside.

Tears dropped so hard
not from my eyes
Tears looked so red
from my heart I realized.

Try to forget my pains. Go!
Fly away.. never look back

Keep flying don’t stop..
you found your way..

How can I fly?
You were my wings

How can I cry?
My tears dried up

when you took away with you my feelings..
Yet.. Life goes on..

shayed kabhi sakoon ki neend humko bhi aayegi

dekhta hoon jo lehron ko to aksar yeh sochta hoon,
aate jaate lehron mein jeevan ko dhoondhta hoon,

chandni mein leharein yun damak jata hai,
jaise mohabbat jawani pe parwaan chadata hai,

koi yaad lehar chord jaati hai aanshoon ki,
tasveer tair jaati hai beete huye lamhon ki,

kabhi khile the, lab muskuraye mere bhi the,
aankhon mein humne bhi rang mahal banaye the,

jaise lahrein laut jaati hai sahil se apne lipat ke,
humne bhi chahat ka silsila nibhaya hai unke liye dua karke,

jaane aur kaha tak ab ye hamari deewangi humko le jayegi,
sochta hoon yeh kabhi kisi raat,
shayed sakoon ki neend humko bhi aayegi.

kyu mohabbat mein dil ka yeh aalam ho jata hai

kisi ki yaad se dil dhadak jata hai,
lakh samjhaye aankhon ko par ashk chalak jata hai,

kabhi pass hoke bhi bahut door ho jata hai,
koi duriyon se bhi dil ko chu jata hai,

kuch kahne ko yeh labz jurd nahi paate,
to kabhi aankhon se dil ka dard byaan ho jata hai,

kyu mohabbat mein dil ka yeh aalam ho jata hai,
har chehare mein yaar ka chehra nazar aata hai,

kyu har kadam pe kasautti ka padav nazar aata hai,
dil yeh bahut bebus, bahut udaas nazar aata hai,

jo basta hai is dil ki dhadkano mein,
kyu dil ussi se roz mil nahi paata hai,

aye khuda kyu mohabbat mein yeh mukaam aajata hai,
naam tera lene se pehle naam yaar ka labon pe aa jata hai.

a place without pain

I need a sanctuary all my own,
a place where I can be alone,

alone with my thoughts,
alone with my dreams,
alone with my sanity,
alone with my screams 

a place I can run to when I am afraid,
a place to rest at the end of the day,

a place without problems,
a place without pain,
a place without rain,

a place where I can unwind and rest my mind,
and let all my worries fade away.

where is my life going?

My life is a bad dream,
Sometimes it gets so hard I want to scream!

I am in disguise, 

so no one will recognize what I really feel inside.

This pain is too much…
I can’t shake it,
I can’t take it anymore.

These feelings eat me up inside,
they are just too hard to hide.

This is my alibi…
tears stream down my face,

I lose sight of God’s grace.
I am falling into a dark pit, with no light in it.

My world is closing in with evil thoughts of sin.
My heart is shattered, torn, and tattered…

The people I see who think they know me have no idea what lies beneath.
They see a girl with good grades and a smiling face,
not knowing what’s really the case.

I am so insecure and unsure about myself, 

where is my life going?

Will this roller coaster end?
It gets harder with each turn and bend along the way.

I have thoughts of suicide,
but if I die, what then?

What happens in the end?

I take the dice and roll it twice.
Now my hands are as cold as ice.

I try to stand, but fall down and crawl.
I’m getting weak.
These wounds are just too deep.

The blood is thick and red as wine,

The morphine can’t ease the pain.

I look down at my clothes as they begin to stain,
and at the needles piercing my veins.

The monitor says I have a flat line, 

but this can’t be me, I am not dying!

I see the light, 

now I must fight with all my might,
I must survive and stay alive!

I hear a voice that soothes my soul, 

now I start to gain control.

The flat line breaks and starts to climb as
I grab hold of this hand reaching for mine.

The darkness fades and turns to grey,
The sun comes out and saves the day,
now I know I will be okay.

Now I thank god for making it through the night,
as I begin to see the light.

Life is tough and the road I walk is rough,
but now I know that I will make it through,
as long as I have you my lord.

Dare to be different

Dare to be different,
to stand out among a crowd.

Don’t be afraid to let your voice be heard!
Scream it out loud!

When others try to tear you down,
share the love that you have found.

Stand up for what you know is right,
Don’t back down when you need to fight.

Love with your heart and not with your head,
Don’t let those three little words go left unsaid.

Be a shoulder to lean on,
but not a doormat to be walked on!

Enjoy what you have for as long as it lasts…
embrace your future and forget your past.

I make mistakes too…

Who am I to judge you?
Or the things you do?
Because if you think my life is perfect,
you haven’t got a clue…

I sin just like everybody else…
I make mistakes too…
so who am I to point a finger at you?

Who am I to cast another stone at you?
Amongst all the others that have been thrown…

I don’t know your future
or all of your past…
but I know this…
only love will last!

So who am I to turn you away?
To say that you are just not good
enough to hang out with me! ?

The choices we make everyday…
the words we choose to say…
The people we let in and those we turn away…
affect our lives in so many ways!

Love covers a multitude of sin…
and it’s so true, because if god didn’t forgive
me for the stupid things I do,
I don’t know what I would do!

So live in the present and forgive your past!
Don’t let those things you regret hold you back,
because this life is too short to worry about that.