all I hope and ask for

all I hope and ask for O’ lord..

is that tomorrow when I lay to rest,
another one of my remaining days,

let my eyes glisten,
not with sorrow or shame,
but innocent pride!

let my head not be bowed
with the worthless weight

of another dawdling day,
but be contentedly raised,

on seeing a panting day
hit the finishing line with success.

O' lord.. leave me not

with the ghost of grief – borne by failure,
but with the spirit of success 

he legacy of a winner!!

thanks baba for everything

thanks baba, for teaching us to be strong,
thanks baba, for showing us what’s right from wrong,

thanks baba, for giving us enough love ans shelter,
thanks baba, for sharing with us our tears and laughter,

thanks baba, for teaching us to stand on our won,
thanks baba, for all the love and case you have shown,

thanks baba, for giving us support and inspirations,
thanks baba, for guiding us in our debating and decisions,

thanks baba, for being responsible, kind and hardworking,
thanks baba, for lending us your time when we are concentrating,

thanks baba, for loving from your heart,
and thanks baba for hoping you will be with us in heaven and not apart.

thanks baba for showing us how a real father should be,
thanks baba, for you always cared for maa, didi, munni, bhai and me.

what more can we ask from a great father like you,
thanks baba, for special fathers like you are un-common and reduce to a few,

thanks baba for showing us unconditional caring and love,
for we hope you can read and hear this from above.

our family chain is broken now

we do not need a special day 

to bring you to our minds,
the days we do not think of you

are very hard to find.

each morning when we awake

we know that you are gone,
and no one knows the heartache

as we try to carry on.

our hearts still ache with sadness

and secret tears still flow,
what it meant to lose you

no one will ever know.

our thoughts are always with you, 

your place no one can fill,
in life we loved you dearly, 

in death we love you still.

there will always to be a heartache, 

and often a silent tear,
but always a precious memory

of the days when you were here.

if tears would make a staircase, 

and heartaches make a lane,
we woud walk the path to heaven 

and bring you home again.

we hold you close within our hearts

and there you will remain,
to walk with us throughout our lives

until we meet again.

our family chain is broken now,

and nothing seems the same,
but as god calls us one by one, 

the chain will link again.

my heart still aches with sadness and secret tears still flow

if tears could build a stairway and memories a lane,
I would walk right up to heaven and bring you back again.

no farewell words were spoken, no time to say goodbye,
you were gone before I knew it and only god knows why?

my heart still aches with sadness and secret tears still flow,
what it meant to love you, no one can ever know.

but now I know.. you want me to mourn for you no more,
to remember all the happy-times, life still has much in store.

since you will never be forgotten, I pledge to you today,
a hollow place within my heart.. is where you will always stay.

a limb has fallen from the family tree

a limb has fallen from the family tree,
I hear a voice that whispers.. "grieve not for me"

remember the best times, the laughter, the songs,
the good I lived while I was strong,

continue my heritage, I am counting on you,
keep smiling, the sun will shine through,

my mind is at ease, my soul is at reat,
remembering all.. how I was truly blessed,

continue tradition, no matter how small,
go on with your lives, don’t stare at the wall,

I miss you all dearly so keep up your chin,
until that fine day we are together again.

sometimes I can’t believe that you've actually gone

sometimes, I can’t believe baba
that you have actually gone,
yet you have left me with
an inner strength to build my life upon.

you have also left good memories
which within my heart I hold,
that no one can ever take away
for I treasure them like gold.

so dear baba rest peacefully,
you are in my every thought,
and I feel such thankfulness
for all the happiness you brought.

forever you will live in my thoughts and never die

you are too precious to be forgotten,
and too priceless to be ever replaced.

you were one in a million 

and you will always be the precious 

and unique person I cared for... so dearly.

there are so many things I wish I had said and done,
but sadly can no longer do, now that you are gone..

but I want you to know that 

though you are out of sight,
you will always be in my heart.

I want you to know that I'll always cherish you, 

I'll always love you and always remember you..

forever will you live on, in my heart and mind,
forever you will live in my thoughts and never die.

and until that day, when we shall meet again,
I'll continue to cherish all my memories to you.

the man that we called dad..

he never looked for praises,
he was never one to boast.
he just went on quietly working
for the one he loved the most.

his dream were seldom spoken,
his wants were very few
and most of the times
his worries went unspoken too

he was there.. a firm foundation,
through all our storms of life,
a sturdy hand to hold onto,
in times of stress and strife.

a true friend we could turn to,
when times were good or bad,
one of our greatest blessings,
the man that we called dad.

you never know, your end may be near

it was early in the morning at four,
when death knocked upon a bedroom door.
“who is there?” the sleeping one cried,
“I’ am izrael, let me inside.”

at once, the man began to shiver,
as one sweating in deadly fever, he
shouted to his sleeping wife,
“don’t let him take away my life.”

“please go away, o angel of death!
leave me alone, I am not ready yet.
my family on me depend, give me a chance,
o please prepense!”

the angel knocked again and again,
“friend! I’ll take your life without a pain,
‘it is your soul god require,
I come not with my own desire.

bewildered, the man began to cry,
“o angel! I am so afraid to die
I’ll give you gold and be your slave,
don’t send me to the unlit grave.”

“let me in, o friend!” the angel said,
“open the door, get up from your bed.
if you do not allow me in,
I will walk through it, like a jinn.”

the man held a gun in his right hand,
ready to defy the angel’s stand,
“I’ll point my gun, towards your head.

you dare come in, I’ll shoot you dead.”
by now, the angel was in the room,
saying, “o friend! prepare for your doom.
foolish man, angels never die,
put down your gun and do not sigh.”

“why are you afraid! tell me o man,
to die according to god’s plan?
come, smile at me, do not be grim,
be happy to return to him.”

“o angel! I bow my head in shame,
I had no time to take god’s name.
from morn till dusk I made my wealth,
not even caring for my health.”

“god's commands I never obeyed
nor any time a day, I ever prayed.
a ramadan came and ramadan went but
no time had I to repent.”

“the tirath was already fard on me
but I would not part with my money.
all charities I did ignore taking usury more and more.”

“sometimes I sipped my favorite wine
with flirting women I sat to dine.
o angel! I appeal to you spare my life for a year or two.”

“the laws of geeta I will obey,
I’ll begin salat this very day.
my fast and tirath, I will complete,
and keep away from self conceit.”

“I will refrain from usury,
and give all my wealth to charity, wine
and wenches I will detest,
god’s oneness I will attest.”

“we angels do what god demands,
we cannot go against his commands.
death is ordained for everyone,
father, mother, daughter or son.”

“I’ am afraid, this moment is your last,
now be reminded, of your past.
I do understand your fears
but it is now too late for tears.”

“you lived in this world, two score and more,
never did you, your people adore.
your parents, you did not obey,
hungry beggars, you turned away.”

“your two ill-gotten, female offsprings,
in night-clubs, for livelihood they sing.
breaking promises all your life,
backbiting friends, and causing strife.”

“from hoarded goods, great profits
you made, and your poor workers,
you underpaid.
horses and cards were your leisure,
money-making was your pleasure.”

“you ate vitamins and grew more fat,
with the very sick, you never sat.
a pint of blood you never gave,
which could a little baby save.”

“o human, you have done enough wrong,
you bought good properties for a song.
when the farmers appealed to you,
you did not have mercy, ’tis true.”

“paradise for you? I cannot tell,
undoubtedly you will dwell in hell.
there’s no time for you to repent,
I’ll take your soul for which I am sent.”

the ending, however, is very sad.
eventually the man became mad.
with a cry, he jumped out of bed.
and suddenly, he fell down dead.

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you never know, your end may be near
change your living and make amends,
for heaven, on your deeds depends.

shades of life

a lull before the storm,
the aftermath of cries..

fear of loosing your beloved..
the pain of good byes..

the innocent hungry eyes,
starving and searching for food..

the love of our parents,
that we never understood..

the loss of a mate,
on the day their’ souls met..

the million blunders,
that one could never regret..

the touch of a dying person,
suddenly gripping your hand..

the frozen eyes of those,
unjustly punished and hanged..

ssssshhhh! ! ! !
can you hear this? ?

this sound that blesses..this sound that ruins,
be it a disaster or moment of ecstasy,

its all silence.. silence…that speak volumes! !

silence of great love,
silence of painful deceit,

silence of embittered friendship,
silence of indelible defeat..

silence between father and son,
when father fails to explain his stand..

silence between husband and wife,
when he fails to give her a hand…

silence of a happy mother,
looking at her sleeping child..

silence of a big hug,
when two sisters fought and cried..

silence of a priest,
offering to god his prayer..

silence of mourners,
sharing their sorrow and despair..

silence of an old man,
being told his only son died..

silence of those who have failed,
leading to another suicide..

oh! ! what is it.. peace or horror,
what is it.. that I'm feeling..

this ultimate language.. this divine beauty,
is it hurting me or am I healing..?

ssshhhhh! !
listen to it.. the sound of silence..
and set all your fears free..

speak to yourself.. laugh aloud..
because life’s yours if you allow it to be..

who is a father

who is a father
an angle or human?

he is wise, he is very nice
who understands his child from every side,

protective and caring
great and daring,

he is a teacher, he is a guide
he is loving and is always right,

so we should pray for his long life
as he is an indispensable part of our lives.

love you baba

fathers are wonderful people
too little understood,
and we do not sing their praises
as often as we should…

for, somehow, father seems to be
the man who pays the bills,
while mother binds up little hurts
and nurses all our ills…

but if you look inside dad’s heart,
where no one else can see,
you will find he is sentimental
and as “soft” as he can be…

but fathers are just wonderful
in a million different ways,
and they merit loving compliments
and accolades of praise,

for the only reason dad aspires
to fortune and success,
is to make the family proud of him
and to bring them happiness…

and like our heavenly father,
he is a guardian and a guide,
someone that we can count on
to be always on our side.

love you baba...!

remember when laughing out loud

remember when laughing out loud we used to get mad
and now nothing makes me sad or glad.

remember when your words filled me with rejoice
and now I long to even hear your voice.

remember when you used to say sweet dreams and goodbye
and now every night of mine ends with a cry.

remember when we shared all our joys and tears
and now I have your memories, you are not here.

remember when you used to wait for me late at night
and now you are not even in my sight.

if pain is love then my pain is fate

I want be loved
but I love to hate,
so if pain is love
then my pain is fate.

my voice is spoken
that goes unheard
a presence in the flesh
where no one turns.

lonely in the world
is how I see most of my days,
filled with pain and stress
and still smile in your face.

still I put myself out there
day after day,
searching for lifes treasures
and get it thrown back in my face.

hoping for a glimpse
or even a taste
of this thing I can’t grasp
that I want someday.

so I stand here before you
waiting for a sign
of a love I so desperately want
I can’t seem to find.

I want you to come and cheer me up

I am old..
my spirits are prone to stoop,
I want you to come and cheer me up!

when morning melts in night.. birds sing,
when bells perform pure magic.. ring,
when mothers wake their offspring up,
when life swarms-up in everything,
I want you come and dear me up,
I want you to come and cheer me up!

when lovely breeze moves hair and scarves,
when eyes long for some-one that sweet,
when senses grow and the evil dwarfs,
when finger-tips sweep dirt and treat,
I want you to come and cheer me up!

I want you to come and cheer me up,
when I go places staring round,
when flowers on tree-tops abound,
when plodding feet require some rest,
when thoughts of loneliness surround.
I want you come and steer me up,
I want you to come and cheer me up!

when bright sun shows, yet darkness dwells,
when thirst can not be quenched by wells,
when cloudy mist athwart the head,
in moon-lit nights, in dol-drums swells,
I want you come and rear me up,
I want you to come and cheer me up!

I wish you all.. Happy New Year

we have seen the passing of another year,
for many it’s been filled with pain and tears.

we have seen our loved ones in their decline,
we have had to accept that they won’t be fine.

some of us had to say good bye,
to a long time loved one and we have all cried.

but there have been times in this past year,
that certain events have brought us cheer.

there are so many friends that are on the list,
and I know there’s names I will have missed.

but better friends I could not have bought,
and here is just a new year’s thought.

if it were possible that a wish could come true,
then this is my new year’s wish for you.

may the coming year be full of hope,
and may we be given the strength to cope.

let courage, faith and patience abound,
and let us pray that a cure will be found.

and now at the close of another year,
my friends, I wish you a Happy New Year. 

its been really long..

its been so long that I had a good night sleep,
its been so long that I had a beautiful dream, 

its been really long... yeah!

since I felt the morning dew on my cheeks, 
since I felt the warmth of your hands,
since I felt the glow in my brown eyes, 
since I felt the softness of the roses,

its been really long.. yeah! 

since I felt your fingers through my hair,
since I felt your smile light up my life,
since I felt your eyes looking at me,
since I felt your lips kissing me, 

its been really long.. I wonder

how life changes in a matter of moments,
how people change their colors so soon,
how relations loose their glow with time, 

I really wonder…

what if things were fine,
what if you really loved me
what if I was a little lucky, 

but its been really long,
since I last dreamt of these false hopes.

I am waiting for someone

I am waiting for someone to arrive,
whose face will shine to light up my life,

I am waiting for someone to care,
to spur me on and always be there.

I am waiting for someone to love on,
someone to lean on when the going gets tough,

I am waiting for someone to say,
that I am the thought every night and day.

yes I am waiting and that’s all I shall do,
for these are my dreams they never come true.

having a good friend is like a treasure

the days of pleasure is not far away
find a friend to move it like hay
the person you can trust upon
the person you can rely upon

more often wherever you go
your friend is with you every time
residing in heart it goes with you
to the destination you need

that’s why it is said that
a friend is always with you
as your heart beats in you
and move along on the dream path

having a good friend is like a treasure
naturally you will be in pleasure. 

I am the one you can’t forget

the day of my entry was really good,
some replies change my mood,
but I make up my mind to post,
I will be your friend up most,

must say a thing to you,
demanding positive replies from you,
as i am a new member give me support,
I need some help but a little short,

I am sure you will understand,
be my friend and grab my hand,
because I am the one you can’t forget,
and be the one I can bet,

be with me my friends here,
and I will give you reasons to cheer.